Une lune de miel d'avril à Octobre ...
An April to October Honeymoon...
Où le Soleil se sépare de La Lune.
Where The Sun separates from The Moon.
There are seven transmutations required within the dynamics of Twin Flames, which means that seven times will it require for both beings to separate and reunite before finally coming together as One.
This is the third time.
It's not that we are at and end, or even that we flee one another's side because of hate, remorse, fear or regret. If anything this is the truest and ultimate choice that we have made to dedicate ourselves to our original dreams and desires when we first met on that dark and stormy night, four and a half years ago on Friday the 13th.
"I'm coming out of a toxic record of bad relationships, so this can't get serious, I'm just looking for somebody who can respect that I'm focused on healing right now."
"Good, because I've been diagnosed with cancer, I'm focused on curing it naturally, and honestly I don't know how much time I have left so I want to experience this life fully, with carnal passion and quite possibly love. Even if it's just for tonight."
After two souls found one another and realized how profoundly close they were in their parallel life paths and traumatic experiences. We found solace and healing within each other's passionate and loving embrace, there were no expectations, no demands, routines or declarations of what was appropriate or what wasn't. There was just unbridled truth, authenticity and a mutual desire to heal the world and cure all of our ailments with holistic medicine and organic vegan food.
But with loose boundaries and being there by my side as I rescued myself from the worst toxic relationship of my entire life, I lost my focus on what love was there, when we both made carnal mistakes going back to old habits and even worse, breaking each other's hearts and our own in the end.
I don't think this is the end, and if you never loved me, you wouldn't be so careful as to tend to my aching soul in this uncertain and often dark transition in my life. From dreams of handfasting's and growing old together in your families home, to traveling the world and curing their cancer, saving lives, just as you literally saved my own. I'll never be able to repay you for such a generous gift. To give me a chance to pursue my wildest dreams and to prevent us from falling into the same trap of in-authenticity to soul and spirit that so many in the modern world confuse for love is the reason why I can't stop following my dreams and never will ever again.
For the moment I gave up on dreams for love is when our fire slowly stopped burning. Instead of focusing on the illuminations our souls experienced within the eternal and otherworldly often paranormal exchange our soul shared in two vessel's searching for the cosmos as One, we let ourselves get lost in each other's darkness, and we forgot to cling to our hope's, dreams and to remind each other that we refused from the start to ever sacrifice ourselves or our dreams for what others confuse as love. Because it isn't love it's a trap, an all too common soul leeching experience of robbing identity for the secondary component of melding into an amoeba.
I admit it I got lost in you, and you let me in so deeply into your dark forest, those haunted hills where no other woman or being on this earth has ever known you. Where your darkest secrets are, so is my heart and my deepest longings for your affection will always be there, waiting for you, hidden away from everyone else in this world, for you are the one that I created the stars with when we were nothing but clouds of stardust.
No matter where you are, even now in this moment cities away working hard achieving your dreams, nothing but pride and awe exist within the heart and soul of this woman that will never and can never stop loving you. We've got eternity my darling and even if we must spend it apart for now I know we'll find each other again.
"We should've met 5 years from now, not 5 years ago... We didn't give ourselves enough time to heal as whole individuals before falling head over heels in love with each other. I don't regret it, I just wish this wasn't happening, it's heart breaking, and it's not fair, but it has to happen because I love you and us more than I love the thought of hating ourselves when we're older, when we realized it was too late to pursue both our dreams and each other. We have to give ourselves the chance, a true foundation that we never had. Don't you see? This is breaking my heart as much as it is yours. You will always be the love of my life. My best friend, nothing will ever change that. Nothing."
As the tears flow freely with purified remorse and mourning for what might've been, I look back and reflect on all the pain, heart ache, sorrow, and regret and forgive you, I forgive myself and I forgive us. I forgive us for being so starved of love and affection that we drained every last bit of love out of a cup that used to run over. I know it'll take time to share the sky with The Sun, as The Moon finds space and distance to shine bright in all her many phases again, and knowing that music, film and so many wonderfully geeky things in this world will never quite be the same again because of you.
***
You are the 11th Doctor to my River Song, I've always known that this TARDIS can't hold both of us psychopaths, but it doesn't mean I won't want to ravage you each and every time I see you in a fez and bow tie.
You are the Kahl to my Kahleesi, and when we lost what could've been a child nothing comforted me more knowing that even though neither of us wanted a dragon, if we would've been able too, you would've loved and cared for us to death, even if he had your Tourette's and my PTSD. Nobody has ever loved me deeper than thee.
You are the Dexter Morgan to my Hannah McKay. We both knew that even though we feel so right for one another, two wild animals in a single cage can only work out well for so long before one or both of us feels trapped. It doesn't mean that I won't be dreaming about you in Argentina, while you're wandering the hills at night in that log cabin.
You're the Bruce Banner to my Natasha Romanoff. I know you're flying in that plane right now and refuse to talk on the radio for my safety as well as the world's but it won't ever keep me from loving or missing you. Monster or Genius Scientist, you'll always be the one I want to spend my precious time with.
The Archer to my Pam/Cheryl/Carol/Lana. Who are we kidding, I'm a read head, and bat shit crazy, but that's always what you've loved most about me. I'll never get tired of your sarcastic jokes, and your brilliant humor. The meaner the better, the darker the sexier. I just can't get enough of your incredible mind. You're the only one alive who it doesn't drive me crazy to inform that their right.
Your the Gomez to my Morticia. Even though we have to live in separate houses now like, I know someday that we'll be able to share a giant house with plenty of rooms to keep me caged during werepanther nights on full moons and you with plenty of corridors to hide.
The Batman to my Catwoman. Always there to protect me, to affectionately love me, to adore me and bond with me as our dark and eccentric paths are so intrinsically interconnected. But there's a reason why she lives in a penthouse and he in Wayne manor. Sometimes you can be too smart and too complex to share space with another superhero for too long. I mean look at the Justice League. It doesn't mean that I don't feel it can happen, I hope we can get there again someday.
To my sexy Tony Stark, Bo Burnham, Lewis Black, Bill Hicks, Daredevil, Luke Cage, and so many other wonderfully ingenius avatars that remind me of you to this day. Not to mention, I'm a bonafide legit comic book superhero because of you. I mean what's the ultimate way to turn a geek guy on? Become a female blade and slay his sex dreams to vampire blood feast levels of satisfaction. What I'm saying is; you are my best friend, you are the love of my life, and no matter where you are...
When you are ready, I am here.
Cheers to saying "Fuck The Past." Let's burn that book and start over again, chapter four in an immortal book of time, space and the most epic tale of love ever told. This is not the end to our story, we've never even truly started. But when that day or dark stormy night comes again, you can bet that by then I'll have let all of those things go, and nothing in this world will tear me away from following my dreams, loving myself and knowing that no matter how near or far that we are from each other that you are eternally by my side.
This is the third time.
It's not that we are at and end, or even that we flee one another's side because of hate, remorse, fear or regret. If anything this is the truest and ultimate choice that we have made to dedicate ourselves to our original dreams and desires when we first met on that dark and stormy night, four and a half years ago on Friday the 13th.
"I'm coming out of a toxic record of bad relationships, so this can't get serious, I'm just looking for somebody who can respect that I'm focused on healing right now."
"Good, because I've been diagnosed with cancer, I'm focused on curing it naturally, and honestly I don't know how much time I have left so I want to experience this life fully, with carnal passion and quite possibly love. Even if it's just for tonight."
After two souls found one another and realized how profoundly close they were in their parallel life paths and traumatic experiences. We found solace and healing within each other's passionate and loving embrace, there were no expectations, no demands, routines or declarations of what was appropriate or what wasn't. There was just unbridled truth, authenticity and a mutual desire to heal the world and cure all of our ailments with holistic medicine and organic vegan food.
But with loose boundaries and being there by my side as I rescued myself from the worst toxic relationship of my entire life, I lost my focus on what love was there, when we both made carnal mistakes going back to old habits and even worse, breaking each other's hearts and our own in the end.
I don't think this is the end, and if you never loved me, you wouldn't be so careful as to tend to my aching soul in this uncertain and often dark transition in my life. From dreams of handfasting's and growing old together in your families home, to traveling the world and curing their cancer, saving lives, just as you literally saved my own. I'll never be able to repay you for such a generous gift. To give me a chance to pursue my wildest dreams and to prevent us from falling into the same trap of in-authenticity to soul and spirit that so many in the modern world confuse for love is the reason why I can't stop following my dreams and never will ever again.
For the moment I gave up on dreams for love is when our fire slowly stopped burning. Instead of focusing on the illuminations our souls experienced within the eternal and otherworldly often paranormal exchange our soul shared in two vessel's searching for the cosmos as One, we let ourselves get lost in each other's darkness, and we forgot to cling to our hope's, dreams and to remind each other that we refused from the start to ever sacrifice ourselves or our dreams for what others confuse as love. Because it isn't love it's a trap, an all too common soul leeching experience of robbing identity for the secondary component of melding into an amoeba.
I admit it I got lost in you, and you let me in so deeply into your dark forest, those haunted hills where no other woman or being on this earth has ever known you. Where your darkest secrets are, so is my heart and my deepest longings for your affection will always be there, waiting for you, hidden away from everyone else in this world, for you are the one that I created the stars with when we were nothing but clouds of stardust.
No matter where you are, even now in this moment cities away working hard achieving your dreams, nothing but pride and awe exist within the heart and soul of this woman that will never and can never stop loving you. We've got eternity my darling and even if we must spend it apart for now I know we'll find each other again.
"We should've met 5 years from now, not 5 years ago... We didn't give ourselves enough time to heal as whole individuals before falling head over heels in love with each other. I don't regret it, I just wish this wasn't happening, it's heart breaking, and it's not fair, but it has to happen because I love you and us more than I love the thought of hating ourselves when we're older, when we realized it was too late to pursue both our dreams and each other. We have to give ourselves the chance, a true foundation that we never had. Don't you see? This is breaking my heart as much as it is yours. You will always be the love of my life. My best friend, nothing will ever change that. Nothing."
As the tears flow freely with purified remorse and mourning for what might've been, I look back and reflect on all the pain, heart ache, sorrow, and regret and forgive you, I forgive myself and I forgive us. I forgive us for being so starved of love and affection that we drained every last bit of love out of a cup that used to run over. I know it'll take time to share the sky with The Sun, as The Moon finds space and distance to shine bright in all her many phases again, and knowing that music, film and so many wonderfully geeky things in this world will never quite be the same again because of you.
***
You are the 11th Doctor to my River Song, I've always known that this TARDIS can't hold both of us psychopaths, but it doesn't mean I won't want to ravage you each and every time I see you in a fez and bow tie.
You are the Kahl to my Kahleesi, and when we lost what could've been a child nothing comforted me more knowing that even though neither of us wanted a dragon, if we would've been able too, you would've loved and cared for us to death, even if he had your Tourette's and my PTSD. Nobody has ever loved me deeper than thee.
You are the Dexter Morgan to my Hannah McKay. We both knew that even though we feel so right for one another, two wild animals in a single cage can only work out well for so long before one or both of us feels trapped. It doesn't mean that I won't be dreaming about you in Argentina, while you're wandering the hills at night in that log cabin.
You're the Bruce Banner to my Natasha Romanoff. I know you're flying in that plane right now and refuse to talk on the radio for my safety as well as the world's but it won't ever keep me from loving or missing you. Monster or Genius Scientist, you'll always be the one I want to spend my precious time with.
The Archer to my Pam/Cheryl/Carol/Lana. Who are we kidding, I'm a read head, and bat shit crazy, but that's always what you've loved most about me. I'll never get tired of your sarcastic jokes, and your brilliant humor. The meaner the better, the darker the sexier. I just can't get enough of your incredible mind. You're the only one alive who it doesn't drive me crazy to inform that their right.
Your the Gomez to my Morticia. Even though we have to live in separate houses now like, I know someday that we'll be able to share a giant house with plenty of rooms to keep me caged during werepanther nights on full moons and you with plenty of corridors to hide.
The Batman to my Catwoman. Always there to protect me, to affectionately love me, to adore me and bond with me as our dark and eccentric paths are so intrinsically interconnected. But there's a reason why she lives in a penthouse and he in Wayne manor. Sometimes you can be too smart and too complex to share space with another superhero for too long. I mean look at the Justice League. It doesn't mean that I don't feel it can happen, I hope we can get there again someday.
To my sexy Tony Stark, Bo Burnham, Lewis Black, Bill Hicks, Daredevil, Luke Cage, and so many other wonderfully ingenius avatars that remind me of you to this day. Not to mention, I'm a bonafide legit comic book superhero because of you. I mean what's the ultimate way to turn a geek guy on? Become a female blade and slay his sex dreams to vampire blood feast levels of satisfaction. What I'm saying is; you are my best friend, you are the love of my life, and no matter where you are...
When you are ready, I am here.
Cheers to saying "Fuck The Past." Let's burn that book and start over again, chapter four in an immortal book of time, space and the most epic tale of love ever told. This is not the end to our story, we've never even truly started. But when that day or dark stormy night comes again, you can bet that by then I'll have let all of those things go, and nothing in this world will tear me away from following my dreams, loving myself and knowing that no matter how near or far that we are from each other that you are eternally by my side.
I have wandered into my dreams, watching each one come to life as I breathe my life force into it's wanton existence.
This autumn I gave birth to, A Scarlet Collection of Monsters and Madmen. A book that's taken me nearly a decade to complete with the brilliant help and collaboration of real life monsters and madmen, one's who I feel in love with, who captured me and who released me before they buried me in the garden to grow among the wild flowers.
As the eighth great grandniece of Mary Shelley; and Lord Byron. I am more than in awe of reading the linked article to see that she published her book Frankenstein exactly 200 years before I finished this very novel of erotic tales of horror. It's as if her blood still flows through these eccentric veins breathing new life into me, fueling a frenzy to follow the course that I have always envisioned since I was in my teens.
From editing to arranging, preparing for publication to contacting creative genius friends for book trailers. Book tours and horror conventions, I desire to bring this Old World of Horrors back into this New Golden Era. For the love of Gothic romance and vicious homicidal erotica will always go well paired with a warm glass of sensual, blood.
To the love of my life, to those dear friends near and far who have flown to my hearts aid in my deepest time of need and to my tribe family. Thank you for being here to support me along the way. For those who helped me create this book, if you are reading, thank you for sharing your madness. I cannot wait to share what we have created over a decade of carnage and carnality.
Coming to The World Stage October 31st, 2017:
A Scarlet Collection of Monsters and Madmen
by Bella BloodLust
This autumn I gave birth to, A Scarlet Collection of Monsters and Madmen. A book that's taken me nearly a decade to complete with the brilliant help and collaboration of real life monsters and madmen, one's who I feel in love with, who captured me and who released me before they buried me in the garden to grow among the wild flowers.
As the eighth great grandniece of Mary Shelley; and Lord Byron. I am more than in awe of reading the linked article to see that she published her book Frankenstein exactly 200 years before I finished this very novel of erotic tales of horror. It's as if her blood still flows through these eccentric veins breathing new life into me, fueling a frenzy to follow the course that I have always envisioned since I was in my teens.
From editing to arranging, preparing for publication to contacting creative genius friends for book trailers. Book tours and horror conventions, I desire to bring this Old World of Horrors back into this New Golden Era. For the love of Gothic romance and vicious homicidal erotica will always go well paired with a warm glass of sensual, blood.
To the love of my life, to those dear friends near and far who have flown to my hearts aid in my deepest time of need and to my tribe family. Thank you for being here to support me along the way. For those who helped me create this book, if you are reading, thank you for sharing your madness. I cannot wait to share what we have created over a decade of carnage and carnality.
Coming to The World Stage October 31st, 2017:
A Scarlet Collection of Monsters and Madmen
by Bella BloodLust
Bella BloodLust News
From two international publications in renowned magazines to debuting my work at Zapp Con 3, October 15th! There's plenty of reasons to board this Airship for a decadent and exciting ride that awaits during 2016!
From Cosplay Shoots in the realms of Steampunk, Pursuing a life long dream of Live Siren Burlesque. You can see there's a lot of coals in the fires at the home and hearth of BellaBloodLustHQ and I'm more than elated to give you a few peeks at what's waiting for you in the Old World Shoppe.
Long Live The Rubenesque Revolution!
From Cosplay Shoots in the realms of Steampunk, Pursuing a life long dream of Live Siren Burlesque. You can see there's a lot of coals in the fires at the home and hearth of BellaBloodLustHQ and I'm more than elated to give you a few peeks at what's waiting for you in the Old World Shoppe.
Long Live The Rubenesque Revolution!
La Maison BloodLust
Proudly Presents:
Concubines, Courtesans & Queens 2016 Calendar Featuring Bella BloodLust
After worshiping my beloved Sun King by taking Him into a world of time travel, passion and love, I found myself transported to the 1940's to a seductive picnic scene to enjoy by myself as I waited for the arrival of The Sun King. A mist Pagan Rome, Versailles France, Sunny California in the Swinging 60's and now the 1940's Pin Up Picnic of your wildest dreams, I've commissioned by staff at La Maison BloodLust and The Scarlet Gardens to prepare a one-of-a-kind calendar for my Master and you. For those that swoon for Historical Recreations and Iconic Cosplay this calendar makes the purrfect gift for the approaching Honey Moon season.
Other Collectible Gift Items:
Madame De Pompadour's Ornament Collection
Madame De Pompadour Luggage of Bookbag Tag
Madame De Pompadour Magnet Collection
Madame De Pompadour Diary
Madame De Pompadour Cosmetics Bag
Madame De Pompadours Wristlet Purse
Rubenesque Revolution Jewelry Box
Feline Disposition Jewelry Box
Gentleman's Playing Cards
Luscious Hindquarters Cigar Humidor
French Girl Cigar Humidor
For Decadent Decor Might I Suggest:
Milonia Caesconia Pillow Collection
The Scarlet Gardens Poster Collection
Proudly Presents:
Concubines, Courtesans & Queens 2016 Calendar Featuring Bella BloodLust
After worshiping my beloved Sun King by taking Him into a world of time travel, passion and love, I found myself transported to the 1940's to a seductive picnic scene to enjoy by myself as I waited for the arrival of The Sun King. A mist Pagan Rome, Versailles France, Sunny California in the Swinging 60's and now the 1940's Pin Up Picnic of your wildest dreams, I've commissioned by staff at La Maison BloodLust and The Scarlet Gardens to prepare a one-of-a-kind calendar for my Master and you. For those that swoon for Historical Recreations and Iconic Cosplay this calendar makes the purrfect gift for the approaching Honey Moon season.
Other Collectible Gift Items:
Madame De Pompadour's Ornament Collection
Madame De Pompadour Luggage of Bookbag Tag
Madame De Pompadour Magnet Collection
Madame De Pompadour Diary
Madame De Pompadour Cosmetics Bag
Madame De Pompadours Wristlet Purse
Rubenesque Revolution Jewelry Box
Feline Disposition Jewelry Box
Gentleman's Playing Cards
Luscious Hindquarters Cigar Humidor
French Girl Cigar Humidor
For Decadent Decor Might I Suggest:
Milonia Caesconia Pillow Collection
The Scarlet Gardens Poster Collection
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Madame Du Pompadour and The Rubenesque Revolution
Welcome to my 17th Century Velvet Bed Chambers...
As the endless accolades truly capture the international excitement of my first and second calendar installment Madame De Pompadour I've been inspired to not only continue pursuing the limelight realms of alternative modeling but also now being coined as the Goddess of The Rubenesque Revolution I truly seek to inspire so many woman to pursue and achieve what it truly means to be Body Beautiful and to relish and embrace it from this year on and the rest of their lives. As truly beyond being a beautiful woman and a intellectual spiritualist, to inspire through my vision and to change the world for the better, nothing means more to me in life than this. To see a world painted in confident women of every size and shape is my hallmark for living in the Old World and reviving it in The Golden Age of Humanity.
La Maison BloodLust Presents:
Madame De Pompadour Merchandise
As the endless requests for portraits, home items, decadent kitchen accessories, travel bags, purses and jewelry, including poker cards, cigar humidors and jewelry boxes keep filling my inbox, La Maison BloodLust is taking over and ensuring that each and every request is fulfilled as soon as orders are placed, a decadent treat for you or your sweetie kissed and caressed by the infamous French Concubine herself Madame De Pompadour. For those who've enjoyed what items have arrived stay tuned as many more items will be added over the coming year including clothing to celebrate the curvaceous courtesan in all her royal glory.
Madame De Pompadour's Portraits
From the professional fetishist that desires to adorn his or her study with these timeless images, to the private old world collector that adorns his or her home with decadent and awe inspiring art, from individual portraits, assorted and custom collections, to collector's editions each beautiful portrait is produced on high quality satin photo print and delivered to you from The Scarlet Gardens. And for those rare collector's for an additional charge you can receive this item autographed with personalization upon request.
Noble Aspirations Inspired by Little Reinette
Charity & Art Hop Auction In The Works...
Very soon I desire to have an art show which will also initiate a worldwide Rubenesque Revolution Charity & Worldwide Network to promote true health and Body Beautiful living, in a world where anorexia, bulimia, depression, self-mutilation and more plague the beautiful psyche's of the divine feminine that walks in each of us on this beautiful earth, I desire to help, and inspire those to ascend such Western Ideological limitations to truly embrace Self-Love & Acceptance. This will take place after I've added a few more shoots into my repertoire first and after a few more lusciously curved ladies join forces with me to debut their work and pursuits that coin the ambiance of The Rubenesque Revolution. As all great and grand things take time to unfold stay tuned my darlings this show has truly just begun.
Welcome to my 17th Century Velvet Bed Chambers...
As the endless accolades truly capture the international excitement of my first and second calendar installment Madame De Pompadour I've been inspired to not only continue pursuing the limelight realms of alternative modeling but also now being coined as the Goddess of The Rubenesque Revolution I truly seek to inspire so many woman to pursue and achieve what it truly means to be Body Beautiful and to relish and embrace it from this year on and the rest of their lives. As truly beyond being a beautiful woman and a intellectual spiritualist, to inspire through my vision and to change the world for the better, nothing means more to me in life than this. To see a world painted in confident women of every size and shape is my hallmark for living in the Old World and reviving it in The Golden Age of Humanity.
La Maison BloodLust Presents:
Madame De Pompadour Merchandise
As the endless requests for portraits, home items, decadent kitchen accessories, travel bags, purses and jewelry, including poker cards, cigar humidors and jewelry boxes keep filling my inbox, La Maison BloodLust is taking over and ensuring that each and every request is fulfilled as soon as orders are placed, a decadent treat for you or your sweetie kissed and caressed by the infamous French Concubine herself Madame De Pompadour. For those who've enjoyed what items have arrived stay tuned as many more items will be added over the coming year including clothing to celebrate the curvaceous courtesan in all her royal glory.
Madame De Pompadour's Portraits
From the professional fetishist that desires to adorn his or her study with these timeless images, to the private old world collector that adorns his or her home with decadent and awe inspiring art, from individual portraits, assorted and custom collections, to collector's editions each beautiful portrait is produced on high quality satin photo print and delivered to you from The Scarlet Gardens. And for those rare collector's for an additional charge you can receive this item autographed with personalization upon request.
Noble Aspirations Inspired by Little Reinette
Charity & Art Hop Auction In The Works...
Very soon I desire to have an art show which will also initiate a worldwide Rubenesque Revolution Charity & Worldwide Network to promote true health and Body Beautiful living, in a world where anorexia, bulimia, depression, self-mutilation and more plague the beautiful psyche's of the divine feminine that walks in each of us on this beautiful earth, I desire to help, and inspire those to ascend such Western Ideological limitations to truly embrace Self-Love & Acceptance. This will take place after I've added a few more shoots into my repertoire first and after a few more lusciously curved ladies join forces with me to debut their work and pursuits that coin the ambiance of The Rubenesque Revolution. As all great and grand things take time to unfold stay tuned my darlings this show has truly just begun.
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La Maison BloodLust & The Scarlet Gardens
Summer Treats
Milonia Caesonia Empress Consort of The Roman Empire Portraits
For the individual collector to the one that desires the entire collection in this gallery, from original, signed, personalized and sealed with a kiss these lovely photo souvenirs are arriving throughout December!
Milonia Caesonia Empress Consort of The Roman Empire Merchandise
From the most decadent old world home decor to the ornate trinkets fit for a queen, La Maison BloodLust expands the Old World into the new with unique one-of-a-kind merchandise arriving throughout December and January.
The Iconic "Mama Cass" Elliot Portraits
For the individual collector to the one that desires the entire collection in this gallery, from original, signed, personalized and sealed with a kiss these lovely photo souvenirs are arriving throughout December!
The Iconic "Mama Cass" Elliot Merchandise
From the grooviest and most free loving items any cool cat would love to have, can you dig? These one of a kind pieces of eternally curvy and Classic California hippie love arrive throughout the month of December and January.
Strawberry Coquette's Pin Up Picnic Portraits
For those aching to watch a gorgeous red head indulge in the heat of Summer in her very own Pin Up Picnic, you'll be elated to find a very retro, classic and modern pin-up series that was published twice this autumn in magazines from the US and UK. You can also capture the published prints from this series in these exclusive issues autographed and personalized by the one and only Bella BloodLust
The September Issue of Femme Rebelle Magazine UK
The October Issue of Delicious Dolls Magazine USA
Further Gifts from The Scarlet Gardens
From compiling a very compelling book of erotic short stories by hunting, capturing and receiving legal permission to archive such dark and sensuous tales into a compilation of my written work, to preparing for not one, not two but three highly erotic and historical cosplay recreations in iconography. There's a lot to enjoy over the coming calendar year, as much as I intended to have it all ready to enjoy before Winter's seasonal kiss has swiftly arrive, due to the monumental feat that these adventures in modeling and writing provide, it takes time like a fine wine to better in quality with age and further preparation. Until then enjoy the endless resources and erotic escapades awaiting for you behind the ivy clad iron gate in The Scarlet Gardens. If you'd like a souvenir personalized by yours truly until then to keep your hunger at bay, visit The Old World Shoppe.
Summer Treats
Milonia Caesonia Empress Consort of The Roman Empire Portraits
For the individual collector to the one that desires the entire collection in this gallery, from original, signed, personalized and sealed with a kiss these lovely photo souvenirs are arriving throughout December!
Milonia Caesonia Empress Consort of The Roman Empire Merchandise
From the most decadent old world home decor to the ornate trinkets fit for a queen, La Maison BloodLust expands the Old World into the new with unique one-of-a-kind merchandise arriving throughout December and January.
The Iconic "Mama Cass" Elliot Portraits
For the individual collector to the one that desires the entire collection in this gallery, from original, signed, personalized and sealed with a kiss these lovely photo souvenirs are arriving throughout December!
The Iconic "Mama Cass" Elliot Merchandise
From the grooviest and most free loving items any cool cat would love to have, can you dig? These one of a kind pieces of eternally curvy and Classic California hippie love arrive throughout the month of December and January.
Strawberry Coquette's Pin Up Picnic Portraits
For those aching to watch a gorgeous red head indulge in the heat of Summer in her very own Pin Up Picnic, you'll be elated to find a very retro, classic and modern pin-up series that was published twice this autumn in magazines from the US and UK. You can also capture the published prints from this series in these exclusive issues autographed and personalized by the one and only Bella BloodLust
The September Issue of Femme Rebelle Magazine UK
The October Issue of Delicious Dolls Magazine USA
Further Gifts from The Scarlet Gardens
From compiling a very compelling book of erotic short stories by hunting, capturing and receiving legal permission to archive such dark and sensuous tales into a compilation of my written work, to preparing for not one, not two but three highly erotic and historical cosplay recreations in iconography. There's a lot to enjoy over the coming calendar year, as much as I intended to have it all ready to enjoy before Winter's seasonal kiss has swiftly arrive, due to the monumental feat that these adventures in modeling and writing provide, it takes time like a fine wine to better in quality with age and further preparation. Until then enjoy the endless resources and erotic escapades awaiting for you behind the ivy clad iron gate in The Scarlet Gardens. If you'd like a souvenir personalized by yours truly until then to keep your hunger at bay, visit The Old World Shoppe.
Red Skye World's Comic Book Vixen Bella BloodLust
The Origins of The BloodSlayers:
"After centuries wandering the Old World thirsting for blood and taming my inner demons, I've channeled my psychic forces and abilities to cross paths with those like me, who seek to transform the darkness they were left with into a productive career. When the descendant of Professor Van Helsing appeared in the form of Lydia St. Clair we stumbled into one another by predestined fate. She knew me as a brothel madame, former concubine and vampire dominatrix, in the frost covered hills of the Carpathian Mountains, seeking a bloodthirsty femme fatale to work alongside her against the allies of Vlad Dracul himself known only as "The B.L.O.O.D.
In my spare time when I'm not assisting my lady in the good fight against darkness and evil, I travel the world by twilight in the guise of a horror-erotica writer, burlesque star, silk siren who whispers haunting ideas into my minions ears across the globe to entice men and women into falling victim in my seductive grasp. From inspiring the world with the Rubenesque Revolution to modeling in the realms of Fetish, Cosplay and Alternate History, there is only one velvet lined chair and three ring circus that could find itself embodied in the luscious curves of the one and only Bella BlooodLust."
The BloodSlayer's Comic Book - Trading Cards - Buttons - Posters
Send Bella BloodLust to Comic-Con by Purchasing Red Skye World Comics Merchandise!
Bella BloodLust Comic Lovers Gift Guide
The BloodSlayers Gift Set Collection
The BloodSlayers Gift Set Collection ***Collectors Edition***
The Origins of The BloodSlayers:
"After centuries wandering the Old World thirsting for blood and taming my inner demons, I've channeled my psychic forces and abilities to cross paths with those like me, who seek to transform the darkness they were left with into a productive career. When the descendant of Professor Van Helsing appeared in the form of Lydia St. Clair we stumbled into one another by predestined fate. She knew me as a brothel madame, former concubine and vampire dominatrix, in the frost covered hills of the Carpathian Mountains, seeking a bloodthirsty femme fatale to work alongside her against the allies of Vlad Dracul himself known only as "The B.L.O.O.D.
In my spare time when I'm not assisting my lady in the good fight against darkness and evil, I travel the world by twilight in the guise of a horror-erotica writer, burlesque star, silk siren who whispers haunting ideas into my minions ears across the globe to entice men and women into falling victim in my seductive grasp. From inspiring the world with the Rubenesque Revolution to modeling in the realms of Fetish, Cosplay and Alternate History, there is only one velvet lined chair and three ring circus that could find itself embodied in the luscious curves of the one and only Bella BlooodLust."
The BloodSlayer's Comic Book - Trading Cards - Buttons - Posters
Send Bella BloodLust to Comic-Con by Purchasing Red Skye World Comics Merchandise!
Bella BloodLust Comic Lovers Gift Guide
The BloodSlayers Gift Set Collection
The BloodSlayers Gift Set Collection ***Collectors Edition***
Shadows Into Light Spiritual Services
Temple & Archive
with Psychic Bella
Autumn Hours at Shadows Into Light Spiritual Services Temple & Archive
In previous years it's been an honor and pleasure to extend hours for my spiritual clients in the Autumn months between September and December of each year, however due to insane schedules compiling as well as many unfinished projects now fast approaching deadlines I've chosen to continue the hours featured and will only be available for Appointments on the Weekends from 12pm-Midnight for clients worldwide.
For those regular returning clients it's still always a pleasure to make special appointments for you throughout the week to accommodate one's needs besides those special bookings I'm open from 12pm-8pm daily for inquiries, bookings and for clients worldwide who desire an appointment by phone, email or Skype.
As much as I dislike reducing my hours I realize this provides a chance for pondering clients to be more decisive with their choices as the year of 2016 provides chances for us all to be more courageous with our choices instead of allowing our lives to pass us by with indecision and uncertainty. So throw caution to the cosmic winds and let your destiny be revealed with a booked appointment with Psychic Bella and to all of those who've honored my spirit with generous exchanges; Thank you to the wonderful clients I have that make it so easy to help guide you along your path in life while also pursuing major life goals that will in turn allow Psychic Bella to become Psychic Detective Bella!
Autumn Classes Debut & Workshops in Progress:
I've had numerous requests for Introduction to Psychic Protection, Introduction to Psychic Abilities, & Child Development for Sapphire, Indigo, Rainbow & Crystal Children for quite some time now, for those looking for Tai Chi with Animal Friends, visit the Featured Products section in The Old World Shoppe. As more materials were required for thorough research purposes before I can complete the following workshops and classes until I can afford to do so these are currently on hold until further notice, but I'm positive that prosperity will change along with the winds and those materials needed will be easily required. I'll be focusing time to ensuring these workshops are completed hopefully by Summers end, do keep your eyes peeled for announcements, until then this is still one of many works in progress.
The Rubenesque Revolution
Workshop Late Winter 2017
In addition to these wonderful classes I'm also in the process of developing a four class Self Esteem, Body & Sexuality Positive & Female Empowerment Workshop Series, that expands The Rubenesque Revolution to women locally and worldwide to gain invaluable insight, life changing exercises, assignments and group exercises to develop positive female relationships inside and outside the fourth generation wave of feminism. We must embrace the female goddess within and in turn embrace it in each and every single woman that is a walking goddess incarnate, whether she knows it or not. By engaging in a female gathering group workshop series that will expand your mind, body and soul to make room for self love, sacred femininity and sacred sexuality allows each and every one of us to bring about the next phase in human and female interpersonal ascension and global consciousness. By removing the stigmas, skewed viewpoints, and oppressive views of women worldwide we create the world we truly want to live in, the one that celebrates the beauty of woman in all her divine glory. This will be available as soon as additional materials are gathered for this incredibly special workshop series.
Shadows Into Light Gift Guide
Psychic Bella Custom Gift Certificate
Psychic Bella $25 Gift Certificate
Psychic Bella $50 Gift Certificate
Psychic Bella $75.00 Gift Certificate
Psychic Bella $100.00 Gift Certificate
In previous years it's been an honor and pleasure to extend hours for my spiritual clients in the Autumn months between September and December of each year, however due to insane schedules compiling as well as many unfinished projects now fast approaching deadlines I've chosen to continue the hours featured and will only be available for Appointments on the Weekends from 12pm-Midnight for clients worldwide.
For those regular returning clients it's still always a pleasure to make special appointments for you throughout the week to accommodate one's needs besides those special bookings I'm open from 12pm-8pm daily for inquiries, bookings and for clients worldwide who desire an appointment by phone, email or Skype.
As much as I dislike reducing my hours I realize this provides a chance for pondering clients to be more decisive with their choices as the year of 2016 provides chances for us all to be more courageous with our choices instead of allowing our lives to pass us by with indecision and uncertainty. So throw caution to the cosmic winds and let your destiny be revealed with a booked appointment with Psychic Bella and to all of those who've honored my spirit with generous exchanges; Thank you to the wonderful clients I have that make it so easy to help guide you along your path in life while also pursuing major life goals that will in turn allow Psychic Bella to become Psychic Detective Bella!
Autumn Classes Debut & Workshops in Progress:
I've had numerous requests for Introduction to Psychic Protection, Introduction to Psychic Abilities, & Child Development for Sapphire, Indigo, Rainbow & Crystal Children for quite some time now, for those looking for Tai Chi with Animal Friends, visit the Featured Products section in The Old World Shoppe. As more materials were required for thorough research purposes before I can complete the following workshops and classes until I can afford to do so these are currently on hold until further notice, but I'm positive that prosperity will change along with the winds and those materials needed will be easily required. I'll be focusing time to ensuring these workshops are completed hopefully by Summers end, do keep your eyes peeled for announcements, until then this is still one of many works in progress.
The Rubenesque Revolution
Workshop Late Winter 2017
In addition to these wonderful classes I'm also in the process of developing a four class Self Esteem, Body & Sexuality Positive & Female Empowerment Workshop Series, that expands The Rubenesque Revolution to women locally and worldwide to gain invaluable insight, life changing exercises, assignments and group exercises to develop positive female relationships inside and outside the fourth generation wave of feminism. We must embrace the female goddess within and in turn embrace it in each and every single woman that is a walking goddess incarnate, whether she knows it or not. By engaging in a female gathering group workshop series that will expand your mind, body and soul to make room for self love, sacred femininity and sacred sexuality allows each and every one of us to bring about the next phase in human and female interpersonal ascension and global consciousness. By removing the stigmas, skewed viewpoints, and oppressive views of women worldwide we create the world we truly want to live in, the one that celebrates the beauty of woman in all her divine glory. This will be available as soon as additional materials are gathered for this incredibly special workshop series.
Shadows Into Light Gift Guide
Psychic Bella Custom Gift Certificate
Psychic Bella $25 Gift Certificate
Psychic Bella $50 Gift Certificate
Psychic Bella $75.00 Gift Certificate
Psychic Bella $100.00 Gift Certificate
Recipes for The Pagan Soul Cookbook
This magnificent cookbook was collaborated by the Fresno Pagan Pride Community as well as those kitchen witch pagans worldwide that desired to be a part of this profoundly special cookbook. It was originally created as my personal contribution to fundraising efforts for the local chapter of the national pagan movement, and as many locals and worldwide pagans have enjoyed the diverse, unique and endlessly ancient recipes found between the pages along with personal stories, tips for cooking and a rich history of pagan ways from the old world to the new, it's easy to see why it was Amazon.com's 2 year running title holder of "Most Unique Cookbook" on their entire site of delicious feast inspired books. For those of you that desire to learn more about pagan ways of life, or are looking for a special and new recipe that you want to surprise your friends and family with, can easily find and purchase this cookbook by following the link below.
Please Note: that all proceeds now go directly to Shadows Into Light Spiritual Services Temple & Archive to ensure clients receive the most updated and accurate forms of spiritual services available with the most accurate and updated equipment needed to ensure this takes places now and in the future. For those purchasing a copy of this book to help support the local pagan pride day organization please note that 50% of the sale's only go to the local chapter when purchased at the festival's live event. If schedule's permit you might see me there next year, here's hoping until then that you enjoy the special stories and love filled recipes found in this incredible and one-of-a-kind book.
Recipes for The Pagan Soul Cookbook can be found, and purchased Here.
What Two Thousand Sixteen Has Waiting for You!
The Archive:
For the daily spiritualist that desires to expand the richness of their life with spiritual diversity I welcome you to The Shadows Into Light Temple Archive
Shadows Into Light Spiritual Services with Psychic Bella Monthly Special 50% Off!
Don't forget to check out This Month's Special from Shadows into Light Spiritual Services with Psychic Bella, each month a service or product is chosen at random and offered at half-price for those spiritualists in need on a very strict budget.
Shadows into Light Spiritual Services with Psychic Bella
Spring Hours:
Mondays-Fridays: 12pm-8pm Phone, Email & Skype Appointments & Inquiries Only
Weekends: 12pm-Midnight Booked Appointments Only
CLOSED M-F for In Person Appointments
By Appointment Only
Available In Person, Skype, Email or Phone
Review Services, Classes & Workshops and Book Psychic Bella for an Individual or Group/Party Event Today!
This magnificent cookbook was collaborated by the Fresno Pagan Pride Community as well as those kitchen witch pagans worldwide that desired to be a part of this profoundly special cookbook. It was originally created as my personal contribution to fundraising efforts for the local chapter of the national pagan movement, and as many locals and worldwide pagans have enjoyed the diverse, unique and endlessly ancient recipes found between the pages along with personal stories, tips for cooking and a rich history of pagan ways from the old world to the new, it's easy to see why it was Amazon.com's 2 year running title holder of "Most Unique Cookbook" on their entire site of delicious feast inspired books. For those of you that desire to learn more about pagan ways of life, or are looking for a special and new recipe that you want to surprise your friends and family with, can easily find and purchase this cookbook by following the link below.
Please Note: that all proceeds now go directly to Shadows Into Light Spiritual Services Temple & Archive to ensure clients receive the most updated and accurate forms of spiritual services available with the most accurate and updated equipment needed to ensure this takes places now and in the future. For those purchasing a copy of this book to help support the local pagan pride day organization please note that 50% of the sale's only go to the local chapter when purchased at the festival's live event. If schedule's permit you might see me there next year, here's hoping until then that you enjoy the special stories and love filled recipes found in this incredible and one-of-a-kind book.
Recipes for The Pagan Soul Cookbook can be found, and purchased Here.
What Two Thousand Sixteen Has Waiting for You!
The Archive:
For the daily spiritualist that desires to expand the richness of their life with spiritual diversity I welcome you to The Shadows Into Light Temple Archive
Shadows Into Light Spiritual Services with Psychic Bella Monthly Special 50% Off!
Don't forget to check out This Month's Special from Shadows into Light Spiritual Services with Psychic Bella, each month a service or product is chosen at random and offered at half-price for those spiritualists in need on a very strict budget.
Shadows into Light Spiritual Services with Psychic Bella
Spring Hours:
Mondays-Fridays: 12pm-8pm Phone, Email & Skype Appointments & Inquiries Only
Weekends: 12pm-Midnight Booked Appointments Only
CLOSED M-F for In Person Appointments
By Appointment Only
Available In Person, Skype, Email or Phone
Review Services, Classes & Workshops and Book Psychic Bella for an Individual or Group/Party Event Today!
The Scarlet Gardens
These gardens are filled with endless roses each bloody one covered in thorns but somehow managing to smell ever so sweet. Once plucked from the garden of life, each lesson, each experience that I have been honored and privileged to be apart of is shared endlessly within these pages...
The Scarlet Gardens invites your curiosity
The Scarlet Gardens invites your curiosity
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The Decadent World Of The Scarlet Gardens
Extended Galleries, Including the Infamous Madame De Pompadour series, as well as these two lovely editions filled with imagery, history and personal reflection about courtesan and concubine living.
New Extended Galleries
Historical Recreation: Milonia Caesonia Empress Consort of The Roman Empire
Historical Recreation: The Iconic "Mama Cass" Elliot
Strawberry Coquette's Pin-Up Picnic
Each gallery includes historical references, insight from the artist herself as well as passionate tributes to the Old World and The New.
Extended Galleries, Including the Infamous Madame De Pompadour series, as well as these two lovely editions filled with imagery, history and personal reflection about courtesan and concubine living.
New Extended Galleries
Historical Recreation: Milonia Caesonia Empress Consort of The Roman Empire
Historical Recreation: The Iconic "Mama Cass" Elliot
Strawberry Coquette's Pin-Up Picnic
Each gallery includes historical references, insight from the artist herself as well as passionate tributes to the Old World and The New.
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Behind The Iron Gates of The Scarlet Gardens
The iron gates are waiting for you to turn the key, all you need is one secret password and entry into my world of dark decadence and sensual delight is yours for eternity.
The Scarlet Gardens is Expanding
I've recently dedicated a large portion of this section of my website to the most profound dream come true that I've found from stories 2,000 years old and now live, breathe and experience it every single day of my life, previous educational articles and fetish entries are now being collaborated and expressed in my book pursuit below, feel free to keep up with my updates as the book progresses.
As I presently focus and make time for educating those that desire to know more about this decadent world of debaucherous living while writing multiple novels to express what it truly means to be a living, breathing and loving concubine. I choose to share through my legacy my life's work my novel which is presently still in the brainstorming realm. After the book is published Mistress Bella and His Bella Luna will build an entire curriculum for fetishists world wide to climb the thorny branches of Twin Flame Divine Reunion.
Presently due to our third separation along the path to seven before divine reunion can fully transmutate, I'll be focused on preparing the novel and all that goes into it after time for healing, absorption of spiritual lessons and time to decompress after my horror book creation is complete along with a year long promotional tour that's presently in the works.
This means that much more of my time will be focused towards content creation in various categories listed below coming January 2017.
The iron gates are waiting for you to turn the key, all you need is one secret password and entry into my world of dark decadence and sensual delight is yours for eternity.
The Scarlet Gardens is Expanding
I've recently dedicated a large portion of this section of my website to the most profound dream come true that I've found from stories 2,000 years old and now live, breathe and experience it every single day of my life, previous educational articles and fetish entries are now being collaborated and expressed in my book pursuit below, feel free to keep up with my updates as the book progresses.
As I presently focus and make time for educating those that desire to know more about this decadent world of debaucherous living while writing multiple novels to express what it truly means to be a living, breathing and loving concubine. I choose to share through my legacy my life's work my novel which is presently still in the brainstorming realm. After the book is published Mistress Bella and His Bella Luna will build an entire curriculum for fetishists world wide to climb the thorny branches of Twin Flame Divine Reunion.
Presently due to our third separation along the path to seven before divine reunion can fully transmutate, I'll be focused on preparing the novel and all that goes into it after time for healing, absorption of spiritual lessons and time to decompress after my horror book creation is complete along with a year long promotional tour that's presently in the works.
This means that much more of my time will be focused towards content creation in various categories listed below coming January 2017.
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Present Novels In The Works:
A Scarlet Collection of Monsters and Madmen
Presently In Editing
How The Sun King Captured The Moon:
A Tale of Twin Flames
by His Bella Luna
The Expanded Unveiling of the year Two Thousand and Sixteen:
Exclusive Access Into My World:
As the previous year has been primarily focused upon creating a world all my own, building from the ivy clad earth a beautiful palace of decadence and old world charm, I've seen so many places to expand upon my creations in the form of erotic expression that is as old as time and passion itself, over the coming months you will have access too erotic literature, including a book of short stories that have never been read before, expanded cosplay and fetish galleries, the more exposure I've received worldwide has opened up a floodgate of creative extraordinaire s to work with and collaborate with for your pleasure and mostly mine.
As I've found a desire, a thirst and hunger to translate what the dark velvet world has meant to me for so many years now into workshops, classes, video tutorials and a world filled with lifestyle, fashion and a personal diary from the boudoir of Mistress Belladonna herself, those that seek dark ascension will truly find their sinful salvation behind the iron gates of The Scarlet Gardens.
La Maison BloodLust is expanding headquarters the private connoisseur will be pleased to enjoy access to more regularly published Videos, Personal Interviews, Published Literature, Music and So Much More, arrive over the coming days and
A Scarlet Collection of Monsters and Madmen
Presently In Editing
How The Sun King Captured The Moon:
A Tale of Twin Flames
by His Bella Luna
The Expanded Unveiling of the year Two Thousand and Sixteen:
Exclusive Access Into My World:
As the previous year has been primarily focused upon creating a world all my own, building from the ivy clad earth a beautiful palace of decadence and old world charm, I've seen so many places to expand upon my creations in the form of erotic expression that is as old as time and passion itself, over the coming months you will have access too erotic literature, including a book of short stories that have never been read before, expanded cosplay and fetish galleries, the more exposure I've received worldwide has opened up a floodgate of creative extraordinaire s to work with and collaborate with for your pleasure and mostly mine.
As I've found a desire, a thirst and hunger to translate what the dark velvet world has meant to me for so many years now into workshops, classes, video tutorials and a world filled with lifestyle, fashion and a personal diary from the boudoir of Mistress Belladonna herself, those that seek dark ascension will truly find their sinful salvation behind the iron gates of The Scarlet Gardens.
La Maison BloodLust is expanding headquarters the private connoisseur will be pleased to enjoy access to more regularly published Videos, Personal Interviews, Published Literature, Music and So Much More, arrive over the coming days and
As you follow your curiosity find the Iron gate, take the Key and unlock the ivy-clad wooden door, immerse yourself in my sacred world of dark decadent ecstasy and lose yourself in passion, pleasure, and old world charm from the one and only Bella BloodLust.
Those that desire to expand will easily open the gates to The Scarlet Gardens, To those adventurous spirits I say,
Welcome.
Toujour's Sanglante,
Bella BloodLust
Welcome.
Toujour's Sanglante,
Bella BloodLust
News & Events
What enticing and at times scantily clad findings you can expect to see over the coming months at BellaBloodLustHQ. From the metaphysical and spiritually educational, to the more profoundly deep experiences offered from behind the veil of the velvet underground of pleasure and pain, there's something here for everyone,
including exclusive behind the scenes access to local events, and community organized soirees that truly help those surviving to thrive in the Old World and the New Modern Era.
Archive:
Esbats
Feminism The Next Generation
Homesteading
Metaphysical Terminology
Rubenesque Revolution
Rogue Festival Rundown
Steampunk Lifestyle
Twin Flames
Vegan Organic Lifestyle
Strawberry Coquette:
A History of Courtesans, Concubines, Queens and Parisian Pastries
The Scarlet Gardens:
How The Sun King Captured The Moon: A Tale of Twin Flames
Compilation Co-Written Published Book of Horror Erotica {Presently In The Works}
Dark Steam Ascension: Steampunk Lifestyle
Origins of Dark Ascension: BDSM
Underworld Club Scene Politics
News & Events:
Shadows Into Light Workshops & Classes Debut
Rubenesque Revolution Workshop Series Debut
Rubenesque Revolution Self Esteem Movement
Psychic Bella & The Scarlet Gardens Merchandise Debut
RM Gillmore & Psychic Bella
including exclusive behind the scenes access to local events, and community organized soirees that truly help those surviving to thrive in the Old World and the New Modern Era.
Archive:
Esbats
Feminism The Next Generation
Homesteading
Metaphysical Terminology
Rubenesque Revolution
Rogue Festival Rundown
Steampunk Lifestyle
Twin Flames
Vegan Organic Lifestyle
Strawberry Coquette:
A History of Courtesans, Concubines, Queens and Parisian Pastries
The Scarlet Gardens:
How The Sun King Captured The Moon: A Tale of Twin Flames
Compilation Co-Written Published Book of Horror Erotica {Presently In The Works}
Dark Steam Ascension: Steampunk Lifestyle
Origins of Dark Ascension: BDSM
Underworld Club Scene Politics
News & Events:
Shadows Into Light Workshops & Classes Debut
Rubenesque Revolution Workshop Series Debut
Rubenesque Revolution Self Esteem Movement
Psychic Bella & The Scarlet Gardens Merchandise Debut
RM Gillmore & Psychic Bella
The Illusive Bella BloodLust
Old World Goddess in The Modern Era
As many of you realize I've been without reliable transportation since February of 2013, as much as bicycling and walking are guaranteed forms of travel, unfortunately in our rather large but not quite Metropolis city, the bus itself is quite atrocious, from hours just to reach the other side of Fresno, to the probably swifter comparison of an Amish with Horse and Wagon it's truly not a convenient form of transportation, that usually leaves one late, super early or profoundly confused as to why no bus has arrived at all. Another common mid-city factor is due to the middle-ground our current city population is in, they don't offer bus transportation once all the parties are ready to commence! In larger cities like LA or San Francisco the buses run 24 hours a day, very convenient for those that work evenings and night owls that enjoy a bit of fun in the night after a long hard day.
This usually keeps me limited to Tower District area as well as carpooling with friends and family on special occasions as it's the only affordable way to travel in this city after hours, with Taxi's costing as much as a half a weeks worth of vegan groceries for a 20 minute ride it's easy to see on a student's, psychic's and artist's budget as to why Psychic Bella & Bella BloodLust are truly home bound for the time being. Fortunately Uber and Lyft are making things a bit easier, however we do intend on having a more than functional mode of transportation by the end of the Gregorian calendar year. Unless special preparations are made in advanced it's usually not possible for me to venture out after dark unless it's nearby. I am appreciative of the simplistic and old world way my life is lead currently but that doesn't mean it doesn't have it's common struggles, as time consuming as mundane and regular tasks usually are, they're quadrupled in time amounts when the city bus is the only method of travel presently, so do forgive me for my inability to see each and every one of you as much as I desire, as much as I plan, but as most of us that live and thrive in this part of the city already realize, once you live in Bohemia it's hard to leave just like the alluring draw of Moulin Rouge, we thrive in the twinkling lights, and creative expressions of art, music, dancing and performance art, so do forgive me if I find it hard to ever leave this place I truly call home.
This usually keeps me limited to Tower District area as well as carpooling with friends and family on special occasions as it's the only affordable way to travel in this city after hours, with Taxi's costing as much as a half a weeks worth of vegan groceries for a 20 minute ride it's easy to see on a student's, psychic's and artist's budget as to why Psychic Bella & Bella BloodLust are truly home bound for the time being. Fortunately Uber and Lyft are making things a bit easier, however we do intend on having a more than functional mode of transportation by the end of the Gregorian calendar year. Unless special preparations are made in advanced it's usually not possible for me to venture out after dark unless it's nearby. I am appreciative of the simplistic and old world way my life is lead currently but that doesn't mean it doesn't have it's common struggles, as time consuming as mundane and regular tasks usually are, they're quadrupled in time amounts when the city bus is the only method of travel presently, so do forgive me for my inability to see each and every one of you as much as I desire, as much as I plan, but as most of us that live and thrive in this part of the city already realize, once you live in Bohemia it's hard to leave just like the alluring draw of Moulin Rouge, we thrive in the twinkling lights, and creative expressions of art, music, dancing and performance art, so do forgive me if I find it hard to ever leave this place I truly call home.
Adventures in Steampunk
&
Other Time Period Historical Recreation Soirees
From The Gaslamp Society to enjoying time & space with friends, family & special occasions I do my best to participate and arrive in style to as many events and social outings as I can manage with finances, lack of transportation and mostly lack of energy at the time. Fresno City College travel is fun but also very exhausting on the body, so I do look forward to seeing you when I do, and appreciate those that can understand how slow paced life can be without all the modern accommodations. P.E.R.C Fresno & JASNA Central California are other wonderful old world cosplay societies esteemed on costume recreations and customs of time periods past, you may remember seeing many of these wonderful chaps and ladies at our co-hosted Time Travel Tea Party for those of you that can't get enough time period recreation fun, join both societies and prepare the sewing machines, we've got costumes to make!
*Nate Butler's Silent Movie Night - November 5th
*Kearney Renaissance Faire - November 12th & 13th
* Those marked events include Gaslamp Society Members excursions to traditional and maker movement pastimes. Contact individual members for more details as these events are attended but not organized by The Gaslamp Society.
** Those marked events are hosted by Gaslamp Society Members and are Private Parties, Friends, & Guest of Friends Welcome; NOT a Public Event.
For more information about these upcoming events stay informed and Like Our Public Facebook Page, are you a community participant that's inspired to help us organize and stock the Zeppelin before each event? Then find our Group on Facebook through The Gaslamp Society Page.
*Nate Butler's Silent Movie Night - November 5th
*Kearney Renaissance Faire - November 12th & 13th
* Those marked events include Gaslamp Society Members excursions to traditional and maker movement pastimes. Contact individual members for more details as these events are attended but not organized by The Gaslamp Society.
** Those marked events are hosted by Gaslamp Society Members and are Private Parties, Friends, & Guest of Friends Welcome; NOT a Public Event.
For more information about these upcoming events stay informed and Like Our Public Facebook Page, are you a community participant that's inspired to help us organize and stock the Zeppelin before each event? Then find our Group on Facebook through The Gaslamp Society Page.
Transforming Dreams Into Life Goals
Lets start with Goals & Dreams, Since 2008, I've been known as Psychic Bella, founding Shadows into Light Spiritual Services has truly been the real life experience needed to continue honing my psychic abilities, helping those in the valley and all over the world seek a higher quality of living and truly transforming from the inside out has given me a taste of my future. Since Spring of 2013, I've been pursuing my AS in Anthropology a field I've been very much immersed in in this role in the universe, however being able to observe from an outside perspective has also given me a profound sense of balance, wisdom and insight, and is allowing me to pursue my BS in Criminology & Forensics, which hopefully will ensure that I'm able to transfer my Psychic Abilities into a Psychic Detective work for those who are trying to start over after finding themselves clear across the world after escaping the world of sex trafficking and forced prostitution.
Current Perils for Students Pursuing Higher Education:
AA Degree for Me? I hope I can Relocate and Reapply in Time
Anthropology is the study of human beings, it bridges the gap between societal, religious, cultural and linguistic gaps that have long been needed to be bridged to assure we all transcend to a more Unitarian existence, allowing the psychic to also become the scientist to not only broaden the world and understanding for clients in a more scientific as well as merging their already understood natural sciences to allow each field to finally accept and embrace each other regardless of terminology. This will eventually allow me to be able to help clients even with medical insurance instead of just having to pay out of pocket which is a big problem with Western Society, that Holistic Medicine is seen secondary to Traditional, in Eastern Societies it's revered and we wonder why everybody in India & Japan live to be 120 years old without cancer, diabetes or obesity. This also allows me to pursue and help my spiritual clients in all aspects not just the spiritual and religious sector, as much as I very much enjoy this, as a Shaman I've innately felt until all religions and philosophical concepts are understood and shared completely we all have missing puzzle pieces and bridges that need to be connected, this is where Psychic Bella comes in. After four years of studious and diligent hard work, achieving scholarships each semester and even being recognized as a Dean's List Student multiple semesters I was shocked and horrified to see that once again my school was lying about government required General Education Classes that are supposed to be here for me to take, to graduate with and are still not there. After also receiving less than 1/4 of the funding I received last Fall for the same classes I realized that this was the hole of higher education debt that this establishment played with every student like a round of gold, even counselors swearing they'd lose their jobs for telling me the truth that the only reason why they're there in their field is to pay off student loan debts that were for degrees they still to this day do not have. All the while they're required by law to push student loans onto those too poor to ever pay it back never warning them of the imminent prison that awaits them. After watching half a dozen friends move to less corrupt and affordable states to finish their degrees and also graduate already while I'm still waiting for pretend classes, caused me to take a much harder road in life even if it is moral and ethical, to drop out of college, and to rush to find a way to relocate and reenter higher education before the next two years so that every earned transferable credit in existence won't be lost leaving me without a degree still and even worse nowhere else to go without starting over from class one.
BS in Criminology & Victimology with a Minor in Psychology
On Hold until Higher Education Complies with Contracts or Relocation is Achieved
It's a horrible reality to be so close to graduating and not having a dime to pay out of pocket to ensure it's actually possible. For so many who are able to live with their parents or relatives rent free even in their late thirties, they can afford a vehicle, they can afford the ability to move, relocate and just start over somewhere else or better yet pick up where they left off, but for the rest of us, we have two choices, gamble on higher education student loans knowing that gambling in Vegas provides much better odds of success and being stuck working 4 jobs until we die to pay off debt that still to this day offers no degree, no advancement in salary or career or financial stability. OR we can be bold, brave and courageous realizing that student loan debt is the ONLY debt that other countries will deny citizenship for even in arduous times of educational denial pursuits, leaving me to save up dimes, do extra chores for pay from anybody that will let me and to save up enough cash in 24 months time to move and finish school in Washington, Colorado, Oregon or very few other states in America that provide low cost of living, fair wages and actual classes that are guaranteed and proven to exist, not understaffed and then cancelled 3 weeks after you've paid your months grocery budget for a single book that is now unreturnable because you opened the plastic to use it for the class that should be here in the first place. This is the reality of my life, so below is my goal, my plan and every donation that is made to my business that isn't psychic related goes towards this goal so that I as well as my love who's been waiting for me to graduate can start over again somewhere else, where education exists and politicians and accountants who embezzle aren't in charge of my future.
Modern Gypsy Revolution! The Tiny House Movement
As much as I planned on staying in Sunny California after obtaining my Master's Degree, I realize now unless I plan on teaching or becoming a Doctor, the wasted money, time and effort isn't truly necessary especially in my unique carved path line of work. As many continue to see the devastating effect on water, lack of resources such as food, energy and even healthcare that is now a daily focus for most during the California Drought, the costs of resources continues to rise, and the value of career security or even the worker as more than property is completely lost in today's society. We're working much harder for far less than we've ever had ever before in human history and to be honest when jobs, healthcare, housing, education and even good weather and health dry up, it really starts inspiring one to think outside the societal box and embrace a movement that's been sweeping this country as swiftly as the Homesteading Act did in the early 19th century. There is a sense of hope, possibilities and endless opportunities when you're not enslaved to Water & Power, A Mortgage and Bills that continue to rise regardless of how much you personally sacrifice. I've always loved traveling and so has my Twin Flame, and for us the idea of packing up and taking off to better places when the economy tanks is much better than worrying about paying off a mortgage, car loans and student loans in the future if we're even able to get that far in our education with the current congress dilemma of their utter hatred for funding social programs of any kind. This is a long term goal, 5 or 10 at least, but it's a very real dream that we're ready to research, embrace and join, it just makes sense in a world that's always changing to thrive by adapting instead of dying for damaging views on the way things have to be thanks to the standards of The Eisenhower Era, no longer are we stuck in the kitchen while men work 9 to 5 and women serve them dinner, so why stay stuck in the same house if we're used to going out for dinner now? Many Updates coming, for now this dream sits in the crock pot of my imagination to simmer.
Current Perils for Students Pursuing Higher Education:
AA Degree for Me? I hope I can Relocate and Reapply in Time
Anthropology is the study of human beings, it bridges the gap between societal, religious, cultural and linguistic gaps that have long been needed to be bridged to assure we all transcend to a more Unitarian existence, allowing the psychic to also become the scientist to not only broaden the world and understanding for clients in a more scientific as well as merging their already understood natural sciences to allow each field to finally accept and embrace each other regardless of terminology. This will eventually allow me to be able to help clients even with medical insurance instead of just having to pay out of pocket which is a big problem with Western Society, that Holistic Medicine is seen secondary to Traditional, in Eastern Societies it's revered and we wonder why everybody in India & Japan live to be 120 years old without cancer, diabetes or obesity. This also allows me to pursue and help my spiritual clients in all aspects not just the spiritual and religious sector, as much as I very much enjoy this, as a Shaman I've innately felt until all religions and philosophical concepts are understood and shared completely we all have missing puzzle pieces and bridges that need to be connected, this is where Psychic Bella comes in. After four years of studious and diligent hard work, achieving scholarships each semester and even being recognized as a Dean's List Student multiple semesters I was shocked and horrified to see that once again my school was lying about government required General Education Classes that are supposed to be here for me to take, to graduate with and are still not there. After also receiving less than 1/4 of the funding I received last Fall for the same classes I realized that this was the hole of higher education debt that this establishment played with every student like a round of gold, even counselors swearing they'd lose their jobs for telling me the truth that the only reason why they're there in their field is to pay off student loan debts that were for degrees they still to this day do not have. All the while they're required by law to push student loans onto those too poor to ever pay it back never warning them of the imminent prison that awaits them. After watching half a dozen friends move to less corrupt and affordable states to finish their degrees and also graduate already while I'm still waiting for pretend classes, caused me to take a much harder road in life even if it is moral and ethical, to drop out of college, and to rush to find a way to relocate and reenter higher education before the next two years so that every earned transferable credit in existence won't be lost leaving me without a degree still and even worse nowhere else to go without starting over from class one.
BS in Criminology & Victimology with a Minor in Psychology
On Hold until Higher Education Complies with Contracts or Relocation is Achieved
It's a horrible reality to be so close to graduating and not having a dime to pay out of pocket to ensure it's actually possible. For so many who are able to live with their parents or relatives rent free even in their late thirties, they can afford a vehicle, they can afford the ability to move, relocate and just start over somewhere else or better yet pick up where they left off, but for the rest of us, we have two choices, gamble on higher education student loans knowing that gambling in Vegas provides much better odds of success and being stuck working 4 jobs until we die to pay off debt that still to this day offers no degree, no advancement in salary or career or financial stability. OR we can be bold, brave and courageous realizing that student loan debt is the ONLY debt that other countries will deny citizenship for even in arduous times of educational denial pursuits, leaving me to save up dimes, do extra chores for pay from anybody that will let me and to save up enough cash in 24 months time to move and finish school in Washington, Colorado, Oregon or very few other states in America that provide low cost of living, fair wages and actual classes that are guaranteed and proven to exist, not understaffed and then cancelled 3 weeks after you've paid your months grocery budget for a single book that is now unreturnable because you opened the plastic to use it for the class that should be here in the first place. This is the reality of my life, so below is my goal, my plan and every donation that is made to my business that isn't psychic related goes towards this goal so that I as well as my love who's been waiting for me to graduate can start over again somewhere else, where education exists and politicians and accountants who embezzle aren't in charge of my future.
Modern Gypsy Revolution! The Tiny House Movement
As much as I planned on staying in Sunny California after obtaining my Master's Degree, I realize now unless I plan on teaching or becoming a Doctor, the wasted money, time and effort isn't truly necessary especially in my unique carved path line of work. As many continue to see the devastating effect on water, lack of resources such as food, energy and even healthcare that is now a daily focus for most during the California Drought, the costs of resources continues to rise, and the value of career security or even the worker as more than property is completely lost in today's society. We're working much harder for far less than we've ever had ever before in human history and to be honest when jobs, healthcare, housing, education and even good weather and health dry up, it really starts inspiring one to think outside the societal box and embrace a movement that's been sweeping this country as swiftly as the Homesteading Act did in the early 19th century. There is a sense of hope, possibilities and endless opportunities when you're not enslaved to Water & Power, A Mortgage and Bills that continue to rise regardless of how much you personally sacrifice. I've always loved traveling and so has my Twin Flame, and for us the idea of packing up and taking off to better places when the economy tanks is much better than worrying about paying off a mortgage, car loans and student loans in the future if we're even able to get that far in our education with the current congress dilemma of their utter hatred for funding social programs of any kind. This is a long term goal, 5 or 10 at least, but it's a very real dream that we're ready to research, embrace and join, it just makes sense in a world that's always changing to thrive by adapting instead of dying for damaging views on the way things have to be thanks to the standards of The Eisenhower Era, no longer are we stuck in the kitchen while men work 9 to 5 and women serve them dinner, so why stay stuck in the same house if we're used to going out for dinner now? Many Updates coming, for now this dream sits in the crock pot of my imagination to simmer.
Evolution of The Red Queen's Empire:
Businesses:
Currently as Psychic Bella & also Head Marketer for Imij Medicine, I'm truly busy 7 days a week, I currently accept appointments on Weekends only, for in-person spiritual bookings and online ones for international clients. I intend on keeping my Phone/Email inquiries open from Mondays through Fridays to ensure that weekend bookings are solidified and that clients are able to make decisive actions towards the betterment of their lives, as they say Carpe Diem, this is the theme of 2016.
The rest of the time my energy is shared between writing multiple books, maintaining my empire, planning soirees with and for the Gaslamp Society and assisting my love in our mutual dreams and business pursuits. This is why advanced planning is needed for social outings and even Shadows Into Light Spiritual Services Bookings, as the months and seasons change so does my traveling gypsy soul, and I'm truly needed out there in the big world so please join us and enjoy the ever changing and prosperous scenery. Besides these pursuits I have my enjoyable times as Writer, Model, Artist, Siren, & Performance Artist, these times are few and far in between but as time goes by and opportunity knocks I'm grateful when good health is along with me to pursue these dreams. I'll be most focused this Autumn in building my repertoire for Burlesque, it's long overdue and my soul longs to be in the spotlight once more.
As many find ways to earn additional incomes in this difficult economy, I've recently looked into professional house, pet and car sitting opening up opportunities for both a more stable life financially speaking, while also having the chance to travel the world without having to save funds for a hotel or other additional costs that come with it. So on top of all of the endless projects and jobs I already have this too is now a huge focus in life, if you want to build a savings, one must push forward in all directions.
New Business - The Grand Opening Of:
Strawberry Coquette's Wild Bohemian Patisserie
As I approached my 3 year Vegan Anniversary I found myself elated to expand my personal baking business into a legitimate side-business; for over two years now I've been perfecting and concocting the most profoundly delicious vegan desserts and have even now expanded to Gluten Free, Raw, Paleo-Vegan Friendly Desserts! After receiving serve-safe certification in food courses to ensure that I know how to conduct a healthy and food safe kitchen I found that having all of these incredible, healthy and dietary restriction friendly recipes to be too good not to share! After many compliments and encouraging words from friends, family and even complete strangers that are 1000% against desserts without dairy, eggs or animal products tell me that my baked goods are the best thing they've ever tried, I've decided to turn my top recipes list into a menu for an at-home place to order bakery prepared and shared by your's truly; Strawberry Vixen. As much as I intended to have this venture up and off the ground before Winter, unfortunately a few business related investments are needed to ensure that my decadent vegan treats are served fresh to you at the highest quality possible. So hopefully by Summers arrival a cute little pastry cart pushed by Strawberry Coquette herself will be wandering around Tower District to tease and tantalize those who crave a taste of Paris. New Spring Menu Items have just been added, why not stop by my cafe and indulge in a bit of France.
Health
It's been a challenging year, I've had a lot of bizarre health concerns arise, from emergency room required visits for what should be simple ear infections thanks to the lengthy duration to see my primary care physician, to excruciating nerve pain leaving me crippled in bed relying on those I love dearly to even help me to walk or stand to eventually hobble to the restroom, life and health has been a challenge. From realizing that the strenuous sixteen hour plus days at school for college for the past four years combined with curing Cushing's Disease a rare form of brain tumor that nearly killed me at twenty three that the body still takes a lot of time to fully repair, heal and even more so realize how to function normally again after years of functioning in bizarre ways to circumnavigate cancer and reflux disorders due to living with toxic people and having PTSD.
After months of insane complications and little relief except for sleep, vitamins and smoothies to boost the cleanse and recuperation process of repairing a healing body, I've been focused on maintaining my healthy ovo-lacto-pescatarian diet to ensure that cancer never returns and chemicals are no longer a part of my body anymore. I'm happy to say that as of today I'm with very minimal body and nerve pain and looking forward to gardening and yoga today to ensure my evening is most relaxing. But still this is a lifelong road to good health especially after surviving Cancer, I'm officially in remission as of April 2016.
As I just received stellar reports back from both urine and blood tests showing that the pain endured each month isn't a side effect of a cancer coming back to ravage my body but just what happens when cycles and hormones are still balancing, I embrace the days where health is optimal and when times aren't as fluid and effortless, I've formed regimens of pure, unadulterated relaxation that have allowed my creative self to express in many old and new facets while also giving me more time to let ideas simmer before instantaneously jumping at the first second of innovation to pursue yet another project that hasn't quite yet been finished. Slow and Steady wins the Race, this is the lesson of the Turtle, my Totem Animal this year. I embrace this time in life more completely than I ever have conceivably before.
Currently as Psychic Bella & also Head Marketer for Imij Medicine, I'm truly busy 7 days a week, I currently accept appointments on Weekends only, for in-person spiritual bookings and online ones for international clients. I intend on keeping my Phone/Email inquiries open from Mondays through Fridays to ensure that weekend bookings are solidified and that clients are able to make decisive actions towards the betterment of their lives, as they say Carpe Diem, this is the theme of 2016.
The rest of the time my energy is shared between writing multiple books, maintaining my empire, planning soirees with and for the Gaslamp Society and assisting my love in our mutual dreams and business pursuits. This is why advanced planning is needed for social outings and even Shadows Into Light Spiritual Services Bookings, as the months and seasons change so does my traveling gypsy soul, and I'm truly needed out there in the big world so please join us and enjoy the ever changing and prosperous scenery. Besides these pursuits I have my enjoyable times as Writer, Model, Artist, Siren, & Performance Artist, these times are few and far in between but as time goes by and opportunity knocks I'm grateful when good health is along with me to pursue these dreams. I'll be most focused this Autumn in building my repertoire for Burlesque, it's long overdue and my soul longs to be in the spotlight once more.
As many find ways to earn additional incomes in this difficult economy, I've recently looked into professional house, pet and car sitting opening up opportunities for both a more stable life financially speaking, while also having the chance to travel the world without having to save funds for a hotel or other additional costs that come with it. So on top of all of the endless projects and jobs I already have this too is now a huge focus in life, if you want to build a savings, one must push forward in all directions.
New Business - The Grand Opening Of:
Strawberry Coquette's Wild Bohemian Patisserie
As I approached my 3 year Vegan Anniversary I found myself elated to expand my personal baking business into a legitimate side-business; for over two years now I've been perfecting and concocting the most profoundly delicious vegan desserts and have even now expanded to Gluten Free, Raw, Paleo-Vegan Friendly Desserts! After receiving serve-safe certification in food courses to ensure that I know how to conduct a healthy and food safe kitchen I found that having all of these incredible, healthy and dietary restriction friendly recipes to be too good not to share! After many compliments and encouraging words from friends, family and even complete strangers that are 1000% against desserts without dairy, eggs or animal products tell me that my baked goods are the best thing they've ever tried, I've decided to turn my top recipes list into a menu for an at-home place to order bakery prepared and shared by your's truly; Strawberry Vixen. As much as I intended to have this venture up and off the ground before Winter, unfortunately a few business related investments are needed to ensure that my decadent vegan treats are served fresh to you at the highest quality possible. So hopefully by Summers arrival a cute little pastry cart pushed by Strawberry Coquette herself will be wandering around Tower District to tease and tantalize those who crave a taste of Paris. New Spring Menu Items have just been added, why not stop by my cafe and indulge in a bit of France.
Health
It's been a challenging year, I've had a lot of bizarre health concerns arise, from emergency room required visits for what should be simple ear infections thanks to the lengthy duration to see my primary care physician, to excruciating nerve pain leaving me crippled in bed relying on those I love dearly to even help me to walk or stand to eventually hobble to the restroom, life and health has been a challenge. From realizing that the strenuous sixteen hour plus days at school for college for the past four years combined with curing Cushing's Disease a rare form of brain tumor that nearly killed me at twenty three that the body still takes a lot of time to fully repair, heal and even more so realize how to function normally again after years of functioning in bizarre ways to circumnavigate cancer and reflux disorders due to living with toxic people and having PTSD.
After months of insane complications and little relief except for sleep, vitamins and smoothies to boost the cleanse and recuperation process of repairing a healing body, I've been focused on maintaining my healthy ovo-lacto-pescatarian diet to ensure that cancer never returns and chemicals are no longer a part of my body anymore. I'm happy to say that as of today I'm with very minimal body and nerve pain and looking forward to gardening and yoga today to ensure my evening is most relaxing. But still this is a lifelong road to good health especially after surviving Cancer, I'm officially in remission as of April 2016.
As I just received stellar reports back from both urine and blood tests showing that the pain endured each month isn't a side effect of a cancer coming back to ravage my body but just what happens when cycles and hormones are still balancing, I embrace the days where health is optimal and when times aren't as fluid and effortless, I've formed regimens of pure, unadulterated relaxation that have allowed my creative self to express in many old and new facets while also giving me more time to let ideas simmer before instantaneously jumping at the first second of innovation to pursue yet another project that hasn't quite yet been finished. Slow and Steady wins the Race, this is the lesson of the Turtle, my Totem Animal this year. I embrace this time in life more completely than I ever have conceivably before.
7 Time Apart before Reunion is Complete...
The Dance of Twin Flames Continue
People who hear our story find their heart breaking, but we have already broken our own hearts and each other's three times now. So we're ready and prepared to depart from each other to ensure that the future can not be salvaged or saved but transmutated from sulfur, salt, mercury and iron into the alchemical gold that we discovered in the purity of our dynamic when we first met.
By focusing on our own awakening we give ourselves time, space and room to grow, breathe and nurture ourselves in our very individual homeostasis encouraged environments without the constraints of checking in and expectations. When we live apart we love fully because we have no time to take one another for granted. To find each other's common quirks annoying after they've interfered with supposed plans, a busy guise from the one and only ego.
We promised ourselves from the start that we'd always depart and give each other time and space to be authentic to ourselves, to develop communication, respect, self-worth and to cultivate a dynamic that provided freedom in each other's existence, a warm place that was welcoming to curl up within at night. Not binding in it's restraint to talk to or flirt with women because we've both made that mistake in the past, on accident and with intention. That doesn't mean in the future we won't get it, hell I feel we already have gotten it, but the more we try to grasp it everyday the more it slips between our fingers falling into illusive role play games of dominant and submissive, male and female, caretaker and caregiver. These are the murky waters that both lotuses seek to thrive from but we musn't weigh each other down in our aspirations to climb towards the sun and to soak in the rays of enlightenment.
This isn't the end, but a new beginning a true start that we never gave ourselves to begin with because we're so fucking lucky to have found one another in the first place that we were blinded by the ideal that love couldn't possibly be taken for granted, but there it was right under our noses the entire time but we both didn't realize it until now. I look forward to smoke sessions, movie dates, hilarious discussions about people we've run into lately that confuse us to the very core as to why their even in existence. But I won't go back to where we were, not now, not ever again. We deserve better, we both do, whether it's together or apart. We deserve to find home, and in the end I hope its in each other's arms at night, while I fall asleep once more on your heartbeat, pretending that moment will last forever.
These are the pieces of the puzzle that I hold onto, because in the darkest hours of my grief and mourning, my triggered soul that's already far ravaged previously before you ever tried to sew it up, soothe it and mend it will always try to tear us apart, as well as everything from me that's ever revealed to me truth, love and happiness in pure existence. But that is why I know that we'll be together in neverland until we can be together in this world again hand in hand. I love you Jimi, and I look forward to when you arrive home. There may be boxes to pack and new places to move too for me at least and maybe even you, who knows what prosperity your new career has provided. All that I know is that wherever you are near or far, you will always be Home.
By focusing on our own awakening we give ourselves time, space and room to grow, breathe and nurture ourselves in our very individual homeostasis encouraged environments without the constraints of checking in and expectations. When we live apart we love fully because we have no time to take one another for granted. To find each other's common quirks annoying after they've interfered with supposed plans, a busy guise from the one and only ego.
We promised ourselves from the start that we'd always depart and give each other time and space to be authentic to ourselves, to develop communication, respect, self-worth and to cultivate a dynamic that provided freedom in each other's existence, a warm place that was welcoming to curl up within at night. Not binding in it's restraint to talk to or flirt with women because we've both made that mistake in the past, on accident and with intention. That doesn't mean in the future we won't get it, hell I feel we already have gotten it, but the more we try to grasp it everyday the more it slips between our fingers falling into illusive role play games of dominant and submissive, male and female, caretaker and caregiver. These are the murky waters that both lotuses seek to thrive from but we musn't weigh each other down in our aspirations to climb towards the sun and to soak in the rays of enlightenment.
This isn't the end, but a new beginning a true start that we never gave ourselves to begin with because we're so fucking lucky to have found one another in the first place that we were blinded by the ideal that love couldn't possibly be taken for granted, but there it was right under our noses the entire time but we both didn't realize it until now. I look forward to smoke sessions, movie dates, hilarious discussions about people we've run into lately that confuse us to the very core as to why their even in existence. But I won't go back to where we were, not now, not ever again. We deserve better, we both do, whether it's together or apart. We deserve to find home, and in the end I hope its in each other's arms at night, while I fall asleep once more on your heartbeat, pretending that moment will last forever.
These are the pieces of the puzzle that I hold onto, because in the darkest hours of my grief and mourning, my triggered soul that's already far ravaged previously before you ever tried to sew it up, soothe it and mend it will always try to tear us apart, as well as everything from me that's ever revealed to me truth, love and happiness in pure existence. But that is why I know that we'll be together in neverland until we can be together in this world again hand in hand. I love you Jimi, and I look forward to when you arrive home. There may be boxes to pack and new places to move too for me at least and maybe even you, who knows what prosperity your new career has provided. All that I know is that wherever you are near or far, you will always be Home.
Until We Meet Again...
From transforming journals and sketch pads into the foundations of my novel, while editing and constructing another that's soon to be released for erotic horror readers to enjoy, to finishing the final touches on BellaBloodLust HQ to ensuring a place to work, create, brainstorm and vision board can take place to turn dreams into legacy and living breathing reality.
I celebrate The Rubenesque Revolution, and relish in the progress, projects and creative pursuits that have taken place successfully thus far while further fires burn in the hearth of my sensual and spiritual home to brew and simmer over the golden months of late spring, carnal scarlet summer and dark and sumptuous autumn. In the midst of creative stirrings as the dawning of a new age and new year arrive here in this world and my very own home I frolic and feast to the fullest embracing life in all its horror and divinity.
There's so much more to get your fill in the menagerie of places I've created for one and all to enjoy. I look forward to your inquiries, your contributions and suggestions and for those who are already well entertained, buckle up for a very wild ride; adorned in wild roses and thorns what else my darling?
For this world and those we create are filled with both pleasure and pain in equal measure and as for me I relish in this silver spoon and feast on the oysters that have been left out freshly harvested for this adventurous feline.
Thank you eternally for your support and for those that desire to tear it apart, I look forward to watching the Old World burn down with you inside as The New Golden Age of Humanity is finally here.
Long Live The Scarlet Queen
Toujours Sanglante,
Bella BloodLust
I celebrate The Rubenesque Revolution, and relish in the progress, projects and creative pursuits that have taken place successfully thus far while further fires burn in the hearth of my sensual and spiritual home to brew and simmer over the golden months of late spring, carnal scarlet summer and dark and sumptuous autumn. In the midst of creative stirrings as the dawning of a new age and new year arrive here in this world and my very own home I frolic and feast to the fullest embracing life in all its horror and divinity.
There's so much more to get your fill in the menagerie of places I've created for one and all to enjoy. I look forward to your inquiries, your contributions and suggestions and for those who are already well entertained, buckle up for a very wild ride; adorned in wild roses and thorns what else my darling?
For this world and those we create are filled with both pleasure and pain in equal measure and as for me I relish in this silver spoon and feast on the oysters that have been left out freshly harvested for this adventurous feline.
Thank you eternally for your support and for those that desire to tear it apart, I look forward to watching the Old World burn down with you inside as The New Golden Age of Humanity is finally here.
Long Live The Scarlet Queen
Toujours Sanglante,
Bella BloodLust
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