Le Seigneur des vins et Passion Seduces nymphes à la danse ...
The Lord of Wine and Passion, Seduces Nymphs to Dance...
Un voyage dans le Carnal Underworld arrive en pâmoison Septembre.
A Journey into the Carnal Underworld Arrives in Swooning September.
Building the Ferocious Future at Bella BloodLust HQ:
Speaking of Celebrations its been quite the productive year, from being added to the chapter waitlist for the International Read Naked Movement, to NOT 1 but 2! Yes 2 publications from previously unreleased work that I've had sizzling up this Summer, I'll be featured in The September Issue of FEMME Rebelle Magazine & The October Issue of Delicious Dolls Magazine! As Bettie Page started getting world renowned fame at the tender age of 28 I find it to be quite the inspiring year in one's life to ignite an Old World fire worldwide for one and all to be inspired by. Keep your eyes out as this is just the start of many more projects and magazine debuts to come. If you or somebody you know needs a fiery vixen of Rubenesque proportions, send them my way won't you? I do want to travel to meet my incredible fans. *Kisses*
By far the most incredible of accolades arrived the night before Anne Rice's Erotic Debut of The Sleeping Beauty Quartet, As I read in awe that not only would she be sharing my article glorifying her work and the crucial need for it to be shared in the BDSM community did I receive word from the Queen of New Orleans herself that it would air at Midnight along with being sent to corporate executives that my work would be shared with numerous Television broadcasting offices that are currently grasping at straws trying to adapt her erotic and at times dark tales into a series for adults!
To my utter amazement I found this post shared not once but twice, so far...and as I sit here smiling I realize that this is the fuel of the fire I needed to start my own Novel and Epic Tale, the irons are hot and the fires are burning, it's time for us all to create things this world has never seen, as I embrace the Blacksmith God, I find relish in the hard work and even agony to come.
Over the coming months this book will be available as well as many other items for collector's in my Queendom, and as for those that desire a very intimate part of my auctioned items hand used, personally worn and delicately touched by yours truly, will find that Joining The Scarlet Gardens is the only way for a filthy fetishists to satiate their darkest desires. To own a piece of Bella BloodLust is a rare and inexplicable honor so prepare those bidding paddles as we've got endless items here for you to own, one of a kind and never sullied by anyone else except Mistress Bella herself.
Toujours Sanglante,
Bella BloodLust
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Bella BloodLust News
Last Fall I was interviewed by Europe's sexiest alternative magazine, Nocturnal Girls Magazine! Based in London and Oslo it's quite an honor to be admired by fans of my work worldwide. The interview has just arrived hot of the Nocturnal Girls Press, click the link to read the interview for yourself. Not a member of NocturnalGirls.com but desire to read my interview? Then join The Scarlet Gardens for exclusive behind the scenes access to this interview and so much more!
I Dream In Concubine Historical Recreation Calendar featuring Bella BloodLust
2015 Calendar Now Available for Purchase!
After an entire year of searching, and over a lifetime of being inspired by these incredible goddesses in flesh form, I sought out on a journey of spirit, art, history and most of all passion to find the most captivating courtesans and concubines from ancient to modern era to transform myself into the immortal and historically recognized female goddesses as the one and only libertine of the Rubenesque Revolution, Bella BloodLust, could set out to captivate the world with. It's with my most greatest honor and privilege for the next year of our world's age together to share with you the rich and decadent history and images of those beautiful and timeless creatures known still to the world today as Concubines, Courtesans and Queens. With most humble and gracious of royal disposition I present to you I Dream in Concubine -Historical Recreation Calendar featuring Bella BloodLust.
These Limited Edition Calendars are almost entirely Sold Out! Get yours before they're all gone!
Welcome to my 17th Century Velvet Bed Chambers...
As the endless accolades truly capture the international excitement of my first calendar installment Madame De Pompadour I've been inspired to not only pursue the limelight realms of alternative modeling but also now being coined as the Goddess of The Rubenesque Revolution I truly seek to inspire so many woman to pursue and achieve what it truly means to be Body Beautiful and to relish and embrace it from this year on and the rest of their lives as truly beyond being a beautiful woman and a intellectual spiritualist, to inspire through my vision to change the world for the better, nothing means more to me in life than this.
La Maison BloodLust Presents:
Madame De Pompadour Merchandise
As the endless requests for portraits, home items, decadent kitchen accessories, travel bags, purses and jewelry, including poker cards, cigar humidors and jewelry boxes keep filling my inbox, La Maison BloodLust is taking over and ensuring that each and every request is fulfilled as soon as orders are placed, a decadent treat for you or your sweetie kissed and caressed by the infamous French Concubine herself Madame De Pompadour.
Madame De Pompadour's Portraits
From the professional fetishist that desires to adorn his or her study with these timeless images, to the private old world collector that adorns his or her home with decadent and awe inspiring art, from individual portraits, assorted and custom collections, to collector's editions each beautiful portrait is produced on high quality satin photo print and delivered to you from The Scarlet Gardens.
Noble Aspirations Inspired by Little Reinette
Charity & Art Hop Auction In The Works...
Very soon I desire to have an art show which will also initiate a worldwide Rubenesque Revolution Charity & Worldwide Network to promote true health and Body Beautiful living, in a world where anorexia, bulimia, depression, self-mutilation and more plague the beautiful psyche's of the divine feminine that walks in each of us on this beautiful earth, I desire to help, and inspire those to ascend such Western Ideological limitations to truly embrace Self-Love & Acceptance.
Summer Reveal
Milonia Caesonia Empress Consort of The Roman Empire Portraits
For the individual collector to the one that desires the entire collection in this gallery, from original, signed, personalized and sealed with a kiss these lovely photo souvenirs are arriving throughout December!
Milonia Caesonia Empress Consort of The Roman Empire Merchandise
From the most decadent old world home decor to the ornate trinkets fit for a queen, La Maison BloodLust expands the Old World into the new with unique one-of-a-kind merchandise arriving throughout December and January.
The Iconic "Mama Cass" Elliot Portraits
For the individual collector to the one that desires the entire collection in this gallery, from original, signed, personalized and sealed with a kiss these lovely photo souvenirs are arriving throughout December!
The Iconic "Mama Cass" Elliot Merchandise
From the grooviest and most free loving items any cool cat would love to have, can you dig? These one of a kind pieces of eternally curvy and Classic California hippie love arrive throughout the month of December and January.
Further Gifts from The Scarlet Gardens
From compiling a very compelling book of erotic short stories by hunting, capturing and receiving legal permission to archive such dark and sensuous tales into a compilation of my written work, to preparing for not one, not two but three highly erotic and historical cosplay recreations in Alternate History, there's a lot to enjoy over the coming Summer months, as much as I intended to have it all ready to enjoy before Spring's seasonal kiss has swiftly parted, due to the monumental feat that these adventures in modeling and writing provide, it takes time like a fine wine to better in quality with age and further preparation. Until then enjoy the endless resources and erotic escapades awaiting for you behind the ivy clad iron gate in The Scarlet Gardens. If you'd like a souvenir personalized by yours truly until then to keep your hunger at bay, visit The Old World Shoppe.
Independent modeling does have it's time constraints, I've modeled for Red Skye World for over two years now and during this process of being featured in their Comic Book Lydia St. Clair & Bella BloodLust in The BloodSlayers as well as having a featured page, Poster & Trading Cards available with my Comic, I've realized that if I'm ever to debut my Psychic Vampire persona at Comic-Con that I must start my journey locally! I've found some great conventions for Comic Book Heroines like myself from Ani-Jam to other Venues keep your eyes peeled as I do hope to have enough merchandise available as well as product booth availability, but on an artists budget it takes support from fans to get me out there, so purchase a comic, trading cards set or poster today, there's exclusive autographed and limited collector's editions for true Bella BloodLust fanatics, so what are you waiting for?
Send Bella BloodLust to Comic-Con by Purchasing Red Skye World Comics Merchandise!
Shadows Into Light Spiritual Services
Temple & Archive
with Psychic Bella
As August arrives much swifter than I could've imagined, I find myself prepared for Fall at Fresno City College, and by ensuring that all preparations for returning to school are finalized, I must once more align my clients with my current schedule changes. As I'll be on campus Tuesday & Thursday evenings and occasionally on Monday evenings as well, I'll be CLOSED Tuesdays & Thursdays but will still be taking appointments, answering phone calls and booking new and returning clients for Mondays, Wednesdays and Fridays per my usual hours of 12:00pm-8pm and on Weekends as usual with my extended hours of 12:00pm-Midnight. Thank you to the wonderful clients I have that make it so easy to help you while also pursuing major life goals that will in turn allow Psychic Bella to become Psychic Detective Bella!
Summer Classes Debut & Autumn Fall Workshops in Progress:
I've had numerous requests for Introduction to Psychic Protection, Introduction to Psychic Abilities, & Child Development for Sapphire, Indigo, Rainbow & Crystal Children for quite some time now, for those looking for Tai Chi with Animal Friends, visit the Featured Products section in The Old World Shoppe. As more materials were required for thorough research purposes before I can complete the following workshops and classes so until I can afford to do so these are currently on hold until further notice, but I'm positive that prosperity will change along with the winds and those materials needed will be easily required.
The Rubenesque Revolution
Workshop Series Fall 2015
In addition to these wonderful classes I'm also in the process of developing a four class Self Esteem, Body & Sexuality Positive & Female Empowerment Workshop Series, that expands The Rubenesque Revolution to women locally and worldwide to gain invaluable insight, life changing exercises, assignments and group exercises to develop positive female relationships inside and outside the fourth generation wave of feminism. We must embrace the female goddess within and in turn embrace it in each and every single woman that is a walking goddess incarnate, whether she knows it or not. By engaging in a female gathering group workshop series that will expand your mind, body and soul to make room for self love, sacred femininity and sacred sexuality allows each and every one of us to bring about the next phase in human and female interpersonal ascension and global consciousness. By removing the stigmas, skewed viewpoints, and oppressive views of women worldwide we create the world we truly want to live in, the one that celebrates the beauty of woman in all her divine glory. This will be available as soon as additional materials are gathered for this incredibly special workshop series.
This magnificent cookbook was collaborated by the Fresno Pagan Pride Community as well as those kitchen witch pagans worldwide that desired to be a part of this profoundly special cookbook. It was originally created as my personal contribution to fundraising efforts for the local chapter of the national pagan movement, and as many locals and worldwide pagans have enjoyed the diverse, unique and endlessly ancient recipes found between the pages along with personal stories, tips for cooking and a rich history of pagan ways from the old world to the new, it's easy to see why it was Amazon.com's 2 year running title holder of "Most Unique Cookbook" on their entire site of delicious feast inspired books. For those of you that desire to learn more about pagan ways of life, or are looking for a special and new recipe that you want to surprise your friends and family with, can easily find and purchase this cookbook by following the link below.
Please Note: that all proceeds now go directly to Shadows Into Light Spiritual Services Temple & Archive to ensure clients receive the most updated and accurate forms of spiritual services available with the most accurate and updated equipment needed to ensure this takes places now and in the future. For those purchasing a copy of this book to help support the local pagan pride day organization please note that 50% of the sale's only go to the local chapter when purchased at the festival's live event. If schedule's permit you might see me there next year, here's hoping until then that you enjoy the special stories and love filled recipes found in this incredible and one-of-a-kind book.
Recipes for The Pagan Soul Cookbook can be found, and purchased Here.
What Two Thousand Fifteen Has Waiting for You!
The Archive:
For the daily spiritualist that desires to expand the richness of their life with spiritual diversity I welcome you to The Shadows Into Light Temple Archive
Shadows Into Light Spiritual Services with Psychic Bella Monthly Special 50% Off!
Don't forget to check out This Month's Special from Shadows into Light Spiritual Services with Psychic Bella, each month a service or product is chosen at random and offered at half-price for those spiritualists in need on a very strict budget.
Shadows into Light Spiritual Services with Psychic Bella
Late Summer/Autumn Hours:
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The Scarlet Gardens
The Scarlet Gardens invites your curiosity
Extended Galleries, Including the Infamous Madame De Pompadour series, as well as these two lovely editions filled with imagery, history and personal reflection about courtesan and concubine living.
New Extended Galleries
Historical Recreation: Milonia Caesonia Empress Consort of The Roman Empire
Historical Recreation: The Iconic "Mama Cass" Elliot
Each gallery includes historical references, insight from the artist herself as well as passionate tributes to the Old World and The New.
The Scarlet Gardens Proudly Presents:
I Dream In Concubine Historical Recreation Calendar featuring Bella BloodLust
2015 Calendar Now Available for Purchase!
Visit The Old World Shoppe to Order Yours Tonight!
The iron gates are waiting for you to turn the key, all you need is one secret password and entry into my world of dark decadence and sensual delight is yours for eternity.
The Scarlet Gardens is Under Reconstruction
I've recently dedicated this section of my website to the most profound dream come true that I've found from stories 2,000 years old and now live, breathe and experience it every single day of my life, previous educational articles and fetish entries are now being collaborated and expressed in my book pursuit below, feel free to keep up with my updates as the book progresses. As I presently focus and make time for educating those that desire to know more about this decadent world of debaucherous living while writing multiple novels to express what it truly means to be a living, breathing and loving concubine, I choose to share through my legacy my life's work my novel which is presently still in the brainstorming realm. After the book is published Mistress Bella and His Bella Luna will build an entire curriculum for fetishists world wide to climb the thorny branches of Twin Flame Divine Reunion.
How The Sun King Captured The Moon:
A Tale of Twin Flames
by His Bella Luna
The Unveiling of the year Two Thousand and Fifteen:
Exclusive Access Into My World:
As the previous year has been primarily focused upon creating a world all my own, building from the ivy clad earth a beautiful palace of decadence and old world charm, I've seen so many places to expand upon my creations in the form of erotic expression that is as old as time and passion itself, over the coming months you will have access too erotic literature, including a book of short stories that have never been read before, expanded cosplay and fetish galleries, the more exposure I've received worldwide has opened up a floodgate of creative extraordinaire s to work with and collaborate with for your pleasure and mostly mine. As I've found a desire, a thirst and hunger to translate what the dark velvet world has meant to me for so many years now into workshops, classes, video tutorials and a world filled with lifestyle, fashion and a personal diary from the boudoir of Mistress Belladonna herself, those that seek dark ascension will truly find their sinful salvation behind the iron gates of The Scarlet Gardens. As La Maison BloodLust is expanding headquarters the private connoisseur will be pleased to enjoy access to more regularly published Videos, Personal Interviews, Published Literature, Music and So Much More, arrive over the coming days and
So find the Iron gate, take the Key and unlock the ivy-clad wooden door, immerse yourself in my sacred world of dark decadent ecstasy and lose yourself in passion, pleasure, and old world charm from the one and only Bella BloodLust.
Join The Scarlet Gardens Today
Those that desire to expand will easily open the gates to The Scarlet Gardens, To those adventurous spirits I say,
Welcome.
Toujour's Sanglante,
Bella BloodLust
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Shadows Into Light Workshops & Classes Debut
Steampunk Safari with The Gaslamp Society
Rubenesque Revolution Workshop Series Debut
Rubenesque Revolution Self Esteem Movement
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Psychic Bella & The Scarlet Gardens Merchandise Debut
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The Illusive Bella BloodLust
Old World Goddess in The Modern Era
As many of you realize I've been without reliable transportation since February of 2013, as much as bicycling and walking are guaranteed forms of travel, unfortunately in our rather large but not quite Metropolis city, the bus itself is quite atrocious, from hours just to reach the other side of Fresno, to the probably swifter comparison of an Amish with Horse and Wagon it's truly not a convenient form of transportation, that usually leaves one late, super early or profoundly confused as to why no bus has arrived at all. Another common mid-city factor is due to the middle-ground our current city population is in, they don't offer bus transportation once all the parties are ready to commence! In larger cities like LA or San Francisco the buses run 24 hours a day, very convenient for those that work evenings and night owls that enjoy a bit of fun in the night after a long hard day.
This usually keeps me limited to Tower District area as well as carpooling with friends and family on special occasions as it's the only affordable way to travel in this city after hours, with Taxi's costing as much as a half a weeks worth of vegan groceries for a 20 minute ride it's easy to see on a student's, psychic's and artist's budget as to why Psychic Bella & Bella BloodLust are truly home bound for the time being. Unless special preparations are made in advanced it's usually not possible for me to venture out after dark unless it's nearby. I am appreciative of the simplistic and old world way my life is lead currently but that doesn't mean it doesn't have it's common struggles, as time consuming as mundane and regular tasks usually are, they're quadrupled in time amounts when the city bus is the only method of travel presently, so do forgive me for my inability to see each and every one of you as much as I desire, as much as I plan, but as most of us that live and thrive in this part of the city already realize, once you live in Bohemia it's hard to leave just like the alluring draw of Moulin Rouge, we thrive in the twinkling lights, and creative expressions of art, music, dancing and performance art, so do forgive me if I find it hard to ever leave this place I truly call home.
Adventures in Steampunk
&
Other Time Period Historical Recreation Soirees
The Gaslamp Societies
Summer Event Schedule
** Full Moon Drum Circle - September 4th, 2015
Dragon Con - September 5th, 2015
A Gaslamp Gathering at Mia Cuppa Caffe - September 9th, 2015
Bootstrap Circus at Gazebo Gardens - September 11th, 2015
Marrakech Express - September 12th, 2015
Artisan Faire - September 13th, 2015
*Gaslight Gathering - September 18th-20th, 2015
*Reno Pirate Crawl - September 19th, 2015
*Crazy Squirrel Scavenger Hunt! - September 19th, 2015
Steamposium - September 25th-26th, 2015
* Those marked events include Gaslamp Society Members excursions to traditional and maker movement pastimes. Contact individual members for more details as these events are attended but not organized by The Gaslamp Society.
** Those marked events are hosted by Gaslamp Society Members and are Private Parties, Friends, & Guest of Friends Welcome; NOT a Public Event.
For more information about these upcoming events stay informed and Like Our Public Facebook Page, are you a community participant that's inspired to help us organize and stock the Zeppelin before each event? Then find our Group on Facebook through The Gaslamp Society Page.
Goals & Dreams for The Future
AA Degree in Anthropology
Anthropology is the study of human beings, it bridges the gap between societal, religious, cultural and linguistic gaps that have long been needed to be bridged to assure we all transcend to a more Unitarian existence, allowing the psychic to also become the scientist to not only broaden the world and understanding for clients in a more scientific as well as merging their already understood natural sciences to allow each field to finally accept and embrace each other regardless of terminology. This will eventually allow me to be able to help clients even with medical insurance instead of just having to pay out of pocket which is a big problem with Western Society, that Holistic Medicine is seen secondary to Traditional, in Eastern Societies it's revered and we wonder why everybody in India & Japan live to be 120 years old without cancer, diabetes or obesity. This also allows me to pursue and help my spiritual clients in all aspects not just the spiritual and religious sector, as much as I very much enjoy this, as a Shaman I've innately felt until all religions and philosophical concepts are understood and shared completely we all have missing puzzle pieces and bridges that need to be connected, this is where Psychic Bella comes in.
BS in Criminology & Forensics with a Minor in Psychology
This avenue of educational pursuits will allow me to transfer my abilities to assisting in more cold cases and other cases involving dead or alive circumstances in the field of victomology, by having a dual degree in forensics I'll be able to transfer helping people and various cultures, and religious backgrounds to be seen correctly by the criminal justice department and also bridge the gaps by solving cases as a Psychic Detective, after already assisting off-record with previous officers and actually being the key person that helped solve the cases, it's been told to me by more than a few officers that they'd legally use and pay me as an independent detective and investigator that will allow me to work from home, be called to crime scenes or domestic disputes and finally allow families to rest once they've had their case or common issue solved. With the best criminology lab and brand new facility here only in Fresno and West Virginia, I consider myself lucky to have the opportunity to receive such quality training and education that allows me to help but not become one of those typical cops, Sorry I quite literally refuse to participate I'm here to solve cases and help people, keep the pride to badges to yourself I'm just not interested.
Masters in Psychology with Concentration in English, Religion & Nutrition
After receiving my Master's Degree I'll be able to pursue a doctorate or Ph.D that will allow my writing to be taken seriously, as well as earning the title Doctor, once received I've been more than informed that you truly can change the world with just your title, I'll be focusing on getting more of my work published, concentrating on religious victomology as I truly help to free those that were bound to such rigid and forced views as I was given and worse to be able to help transcend life in the most healthy way. Nutrition is essential as a vegan and holistic medicine practitioner, I'm quite excited to announce that in the next decade my love and I will be able to open a Holistic Medicine Clinic, that specializes in healthy living, from gardening, to raw food clinics, to spirituality and holistic medicine we're rooted in our goals and dreams for the future, to not only continue to be healthy but to help those that never thought they could gain a second chance at life and vitality. Becoming a Diadedic Aide will assure my partner that when He's out away from the clinic saving the world, I'll be there ensuring our staff, patients and temple is running efficiently as this level of degree is required to assist a brilliant Doctor and eventual Masters in Chemistry my one and only Twin Flame. I can already see him accepting his Nobel Prize for curing so many diseases and ailments of humanities modern era, and with his brilliance ensuring your body is well, and my desire to help your soul and mind, we're both truly anticipating and ensuring this dream comies to fruition more than you can even imagine.
Modern Gypsy Revolution! The Tiny House Movement
As much as I planned on staying in Sunny California after obtaining my Master's Degree, I realize now unless I plan on teaching or becoming a Doctor, the wasted money, time and effort isn't truly necessary especially in my unique carved path line of work. As many continue to see the devastating effect on water, resources, food, energy and even health that is now a daily focus for most during the California Drought, the costs of resources continues to rise, and the value of career security or even the worker as more than property is completely lost in today's society. We're working much harder for far less than we've ever had ever before in human history and to be honest when jobs, healthcare, education and even good weather and health dry up, it really starts inspiring one to think outside the societal box and embrace a movement that's been sweeping this country as swiftly as the Homesteading Act did in the early 19th century. There is a sense of hope, possibilities and endless opportunities when you're not enslaved to Water & Power, A Mortgage and Bills that continue to rise regardless of how much you personally sacrifice. I've always loved traveling and so has my Twin Flame, and for us the idea of packing up and taking off to better places when the economy tanks is much better than worrying about paying off a mortgage, car loans and student loans in the future if we're even able to get that far in our education with the current congress dilemma of their utter hatred for funding social programs of any kind. This is a long term goal, 5 or 10 at least, but it's a very real dream that we're ready to research, embrace and join, it just makes sense in a world that's always changing to thrive by adapting instead of dying for damaging views on the way things have to be thanks to the standards of The Eisenhower Era, no longer are we stuck in the kitchen while men work 9 to 5 and women serve them dinner, so why stay stuck in the same house if we're used to going out for dinner now? Many Updates coming, for now this dream sits in the crock pot of my imagination to simmer.
Successful in Business & Health
Currently as Psychic Bella & also Head Marketer for Imij Medicine, I'm truly busy 7 days a week, I currently accept appointments Mondays, Wednesdays and Fridays as well as on Weekends for in-person spiritual bookings and online ones for international clients. The rest of the time my energy is shared between collegiate pursuits, and assisting my love in our mutual dreams and business pursuits. This is why advanced planning is needed for social outings and even Shadows Into Light Spiritual Services Bookings, as the months and seasons change so does my traveling gypsy soul, and I'm truly needed out there in the big world so please join us and enjoy the ever changing and prosperous scenery. Besides these pursuits I have my enjoyable times as Model, Artist, Siren, & Performance Artist, these times are few and far in between but as time goes by and opportunity knocks I'm grateful when good health is along with me to pursue these dreams.
New Business
Strawberry Vixen's Wild Vegan Delights
As I approach my 3 year Vegan Anniversary I'm elated to expand my personal baking business into a legitimate side-business; for over two years now I've been perfecting and concocting the most profoundly delicious vegan desserts and have even now expanded to Gluten Free, Raw, Paleo-Vegan Friendly Desserts! After receiving serve-safe certification in food courses to ensure that I know how to conduct a healthy and food safe kitchen I found that having all of these incredible, healthy and dietary restriction friendly recipes to be too good not to share! After many compliments and encouraging words from friends, family and even complete strangers that are 1000% against desserts without dairy, eggs or animal products tell me that my baked goods are the best thing they've ever tried, I've decided to turn my top recipes list into a menu for an at-home place to order bakery prepared and shared by your's truly; Strawberry Vixen. This menu will arrive along with additional flyers and webpage here at HQ right in time for Halloween. As much as I intended to have this venture up and off the ground before Fall unfortunately a few business related investments are needed to ensure that my decadent vegan treats are served fresh to you at the highest quality possible.
Health
After a very tumultuous year in two thousand fourteen and many months of dealing with endless health issues, (that was after fifteen years trying to get this tubal ligation surgery) I'm proud to say with the last bit of the slow post surgery muscular healing right now that I'm doing fantastic! I feel amazing, energy is restored no more insane ovaries trying to kill me with cyst bursts each month, and the extensive cleaning procedure done for my endometriosis scar tissue has left my body feeling wonderful! I never realized how many ailments stemmed from these awful disorders and now that I'm a fixed kitten I'm happy to say I feel like a true Goddess now that my mind, body and soul are working together in tandem instead of being mentally exhausted and spiritually depressed that once again this month I'm down for two weeks just existing until the problems went away after my menstrual cycles each month. I'm finally 1000% percent healthy and because of that life long issue finally being solved be prepared to see a lot more of me over the coming weeks, months and years! I'm happy to be alive and have the energy to boot! I have had some carpal tunnel flair ups for the first time in life, but after a very long year at college on top of my pretty labor intensive life as a homesteader I'll be taking much needed breaks and time in between writing this Fall and saving the world to take care of my wrists and hands and to give myself extra time here at HQ to ensure projects are finished at a pace that is much better for my body.
In His Arms or Oceans Apart
Twin Flame Love is Eternally Home
As I confused and blurred healthy boundaries for a crueler form of abandonment so many heart strings were plucked deep down and revealed so much of me that still needs to heal, process, love and grow. From the nurturing that is lost when I had to adopt my beloved cats out years ago when I chose freedom and love over torture and abuse from another, I had to make sacrifices just to survive, and shortly after that amputation of my mothering heart, we endured almost being shredded apart from waiting to know if I'd be alive much longer while my body tried to miscarry and my appointment for a life saving abortion was prayed for to survive. These deep wounds can't and won't go away easily or swiftly, much like other deep wounds in the soul that have been left by a mother who shouldn't have mothered and a fiancee that hated himself so deeply that he snuffed out the light of love and stifled it away.
This time apart and in monastery like meditations is not one of punishment but of peace, to cut ties with the codependency that was braided into our souls by abusive mothers and cruel facades of those who pretend that lover is a term that could ever be associated with somebody that just enjoys using you for sex, money, therapy, love and throws you out as soon as you realize that they honestly have nothing to offer but the ability to use, take and sever ties when they've snuffed out invaluable resources in the human soul.
Even in these days and nights when we are apart it never feels like we've ever left eachother's side, in fact I see a beautiful blue aura that dashes as fast as the flash, always mindful of checking in on me at a moment's notice to make sure that any emotional energy he feels is good, loved, healthy and supported, in this world where everything from economy, religion, family dynamics and fortune can tear two people apart we choose to be One, as we have since the very first moment we spoke, kissed, held each other close and expressed the deepest, truest and most profound feelings about ourselves the very first night we met.
This is what it truly means to be loved, not rejected, used, abandoned, hurt or abused, but loved, protected, supported, understood and guided towards ascended ways of solving problems in dark times that most will never understand or even fathom because they haven't the room or understanding in their souls nor hearts, but know if you like we choose not to settle but to water your own grass, plant your own seeds and watch the flowers grow, you too might find yourself smiling next to one that enjoys planting futures instead of burning bridges and worlds to the ground standing by your side helping to sew those seeds into dreams and plans that will take hold onto this world in ways that the Gods and Goddesses themselves are sitting by eagerly just waiting to see what adventure we as One will embark upon next as loving and eternal Twin Flames.
Until We Meet Again...
Toujours Sanglante,
Bella BloodLust