Les douches abondantes de Avril...
The Abundant Showers of April...
Fournir l'occasion d'rosée embrassa bourgeons se épanouir en beauté radieuse.
Provide ample opportunity for dew kissed buds to blossom into radiant beauty.
This past few months has been a literal storm of errands, the quick and overbearing pace of life's demands and I must confess I simply didn't expect it or even see it coming! From Birthdays, to Anniversaries, Concerts and Weddings of dear friends, I've found myself in such an exhausted state feeling the fullest brunt and weight of both Saturn and Pluto Retrograde. I forgot to realize that along with a golden birthday comes the very same astrological pattern sequence that was created in the stars, skies and galaxy above in the very identical dance and song of the exact year I was born.
With this comes a bevy of harmonious and monumental occasions but I never expected such a year to also be shrouded in such visceral, raw and even overwhelmingly painful spiritual lessons. Once the woman that meditated for over six hours a day and had the ability to be a living breathing fire bender, is now fixated on the busy pace of life and the often cluttered and disjointedness of my present mind. It's hard to reverse engineer your entire existence it's the very gift and what presently feels like curse of the psychic's ultimate experience on this roller coaster ride we call life.
To feel and see how once we obtained glory, peace and a profound sense of calm strength, to see it transform into the very dark matter of chaos itself is almost too overwhelming and overbearing to the spiritual soul and for the mental apparatus to bare. I find myself curled up too often in times of even great celebration in the spiritual fetal position ready to cry again for the countless time for today over yet another painful revelation from the past that is meant to be a guide to a better future, if I can only get through tomorrow.
I felt that taking a vision quest would end in a much needed realization, and truly it did, the revelation that the work I've been striving to do my entire life, has to be corrected, reorganized and most of what was left in profound wisdom and enlightenment just isn't there anymore, the library archive of one's mind has eroded and over time those books filled with endless resources and access to knowledge of experience and others testimonies has been eaten word for word by the very same bugs that we find in the most arcane of libraries. Each eloquent phrase is now just a faded and chewed up version of it's former self, left with decayed letters that have no context or meaning anymore, at least not for now. In the ultimate hope of finding that it would be easy to connect all of the individual archives in one's mind, what I found was that perhaps certain doors are locked for a very good reason, to open them all at once allows the flood of books and loose pages to flow down every corridor of one's mind to leave them utterly paralyzed as to what to do next.
After weeks of trying to get ahead, I seemed to have traveled too far and too fast into the future of tomorrow to find myself in a very unlucky and unsuccessful past due to burn out, exhaustion and most of all fear. These are dark times in the ether and even darker times in the world at large, but without the hopes and dreams of tomorrow we truly have nothing to celebrate today. As my body struggles to correct things in my personal and spiritual self that are presently off-kilter I found myself almost psychotic when my computer and the virus that I've been struggling to rid for nearly a month, just so happened to erase the very documents I needed to turn into my professors to ensure that I passed this most difficult of classes.
Without the love, faith, support and help of my dearest Twin Flame, I probably wouldn't be here right now, instead I'd be curled up in bed, preparing to flunk out of college, all after working so hard and ensuring I was ahead, instead of traveling well and safe on my journey I fixated on the destination, this is never good, a personal challenge and overall spiritual blindness that stems from a life filled with pain, suffering, trauma and torture. It's time once and for all to release all of that and let it go, to not care if the books are organized on the shelf, as each page scattered in the halls of my mind will eventually find its place over time. For now doing isn't the answer, just sustaining, enduring, taking care of one's self and persevering even against the most almost unbelievable odds. So for now in the midst of the changing seasons from Spring to Summer, I find myself in solitary reflection of peace, of quiet, of serenity and of nothingness, the pure mystical foggy ether of the great beyond that welcomes no thoughts, feelings or fears but embraces those who desire to just be and let be. This is the harshest lesson for lightworkers to learn in our spiritual development, that burning bright isn't possible for forever if we can't harness and nourish the light within when it's weak, dwindled to a small flicker and in need of reignition. So I take time to not do things, to not write, to not focus on dreams and jobs, and fixations required for a healthy tomorrow. Today is all I'm focused on, the very now of the present moment, and ensuring that one is good and the the ones that follow are peaceful, healthy and self-loving as well.
It's time to radiate one's light within the darkness, it's the only way to persevere into an unknown tomorrow, by embracing that a plan was already made and you're now just retracing steps to a journey already well lived that ended not only on a good note but as the happy ending one and all deserve on this planet, regardless of era, obstacles or time.
Building the Future at Bella BloodLust HQ:
By far the most incredible of accolades arrived the night before Anne Rice's Erotic Debut of The Sleeping Beauty Quartet, As I read in awe that not only would she be sharing my article glorifying her work and the crucial need for it to be shared in the BDSM community did I receive word from the Queen of New Orleans herself that it would air at Midnight along with being sent to corporate executives that my work would be shared with numerous Television broadcasting offices that are currently grasping at straws trying to adapt her erotic and at times dark tales into a series for adults!
To my utter amazement I found this post shared not once but twice, so far...and as I sit here smiling I realize that this is the fuel of the fire I needed to start my own Novel and Epic Tale, the irons are hot and the fires are burning, it's time for us all to create things this world has never seen, as I embrace the Blacksmith God, I find relish in the hard work and even agony to come.
Over the coming months this book will be available as well as many other items for collector's in my Queendom, and as for those that desire a very intimate part of my auctioned items hand used, personally worn and delicately touched by yours truly, will find that Joining The Scarlet Gardens is the only way for a filthy fetishists to satiate their darkest desires. To own a piece of Bella BloodLust is a rare and inexplicable honor so prepare those bidding paddles as we've got endless items here for you to own, one of a kind and never sullied by anyone else except Mistress Bella herself.
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I've just been interviewed by Europe's sexiest alternative magazine, Nocturnal Girls Magazine! Based in London and Oslo it's quite an honor to be admired by fans of my work worldwide. The interview has just arrived hot of the Nocturnal Girls Press, click the link to read the interview for yourself. Not a member of NocturnalGirls.com but desire to read my interview? Then join The Scarlet Gardens for exclusive behind the scenes access to this interview and so much more!
I Dream In Concubine Historical Recreation Calendar featuring Bella BloodLust
2015 Calendar Now Available for Purchase!
After an entire year of searching, and over a lifetime of being inspired by these incredible goddesses in flesh form, I sought out on a journey of spirit, art, history and most of all passion to find the most captivating courtesans and concubines from ancient to modern era to transform myself into the immortal and historically recognized female goddesses as the one and only libertine of the Rubenesque Revolution, Bella BloodLust, could set out to captivate the world with. It's with my most greatest honor and privilege for the next year of our world's age together to share with you the rich and decadent history and images of those beautiful and timeless creatures known still to the world today as Concubines, Courtesans and Queens. With most humble and gracious of royal disposition I present to you I Dream in Concubine -Historical Recreation Calendar featuring Bella BloodLust.
These Limited Edition Calendars are almost entirely Sold Out! Get yours before they're all gone!
Welcome to my 17th Century Velvet Bed Chambers...
As the endless accolades truly capture the international excitement of my first calendar installment Madame De Pompadour I've been inspired to not only pursue the limelight realms of alternative modeling but also now being coined as the Goddess of The Rubenesque Revolution I truly seek to inspire so many woman to pursue and achieve what it truly means to be Body Beautiful and to relish and embrace it from this year on and the rest of their lives as truly beyond being a beautiful woman and a intellectual spiritualist, to inspire through my vision to change the world for the better, nothing means more to me in life than this.
La Maison BloodLust Presents:
Madame De Pompadour Merchandise
As the endless requests for portraits, home items, decadent kitchen accessories, travel bags, purses and jewelry, including poker cards, cigar humidors and jewelry boxes keep filling my inbox, La Maison BloodLust is taking over and ensuring that each and every request is fulfilled as soon as orders are placed, a decadent treat for you or your sweetie kissed and caressed by the infamous French Concubine herself Madame De Pompadour.
Madame De Pompadour's Portraits
From the professional fetishist that desires to adorn his or her study with these timeless images, to the private old world collector that adorns his or her home with decadent and awe inspiring art, from individual portraits, assorted and custom collections, to collector's editions each beautiful portrait is produced on high quality satin photo print and delivered to you from The Scarlet Gardens.
Noble Aspirations Inspired by Little Reinette
Charity & Art Hop Auction In The Works...
Very soon I desire to have an art show which will also initiate a worldwide Rubenesque Revolution Charity & Worldwide Network to promote true health and Body Beautiful living, in a world where anorexia, bulimia, depression, self-mutilation and more plague the beautiful psyche's of the divine feminine that walks in each of us on this beautiful earth, I desire to help, and inspire those to ascend such Western Ideological limitations to truly embrace Self-Love & Acceptance.
Milonia Caesonia Empress Consort of The Roman Empire Portraits
For the individual collector to the one that desires the entire collection in this gallery, from original, signed, personalized and sealed with a kiss these lovely photo souvenirs are arriving throughout December!
Milonia Caesonia Empress Consort of The Roman Empire Merchandise
From the most decadent old world home decor to the ornate trinkets fit for a queen, La Maison BloodLust expands the Old World into the new with unique one-of-a-kind merchandise arriving throughout December and January.
The Iconic "Mama Cass" Elliot Portraits
For the individual collector to the one that desires the entire collection in this gallery, from original, signed, personalized and sealed with a kiss these lovely photo souvenirs are arriving throughout December!
The Iconic "Mama Cass" Elliot Merchandise
From the grooviest and most free loving items any cool cat would love to have, can you dig? These one of a kind pieces of eternally curvy and Classic California hippie love arrive throughout the month of December and January.
Further Gifts from The Scarlet Gardens
From compiling a very compelling book of erotic short stories by hunting, capturing and receiving legal permission to archive such dark and sensuous tales into a compilation of my written work, to preparing for not one, not two but three highly erotic and historical cosplay recreations in Alternate History, there's a lot to enjoy over the coming Summer months, as much as I intended to have it all ready to enjoy before Spring's seasonal kiss has swiftly parted, due to the monumental feat that these adventures in modeling and writing provide, it takes time like a fine wine to better in quality with age and further preparation. Until then enjoy the endless resources and erotic escapades awaiting for you behind the ivy clad iron gate in The Scarlet Gardens. If you'd like a souvenir personalized by yours truly until then to keep your hunger at bay, visit The Old World Shoppe.
Independent modeling does have it's time constraints, I've modeled for Red Skye World for over two years now and during this process of being featured in their Comic Book Lydia St. Clair & Bella BloodLust in The BloodSlayers as well as having a featured page, Poster & Trading Cards available with my Comic, I've realized that if I'm ever to debut my Psychic Vampire persona at Comic-Con that I must start my journey locally! I've found some great conventions for Comic Book Heroines like myself from Ani-Jam to other Venues keep your eyes peeled as I do hope to have enough merchandise available as well as product booth availability, but on an artists budget it takes support from fans to get me out there, so purchase a comic, trading cards set or poster today, there's exclusive autographed and limited collector's editions for true Bella BloodLust fanatics, so what are you waiting for?
Send Bella BloodLust to Comic-Con by Purchasing Red Skye World Comics Merchandise!
From January to June I'll be closed Tuesday's through Thursdays Weekly. I'm sure I'll be open again on Wednesdays for clients during the summer but due to a very hectic schedule it would be nearly impossible to provide quality service when I'm too busy on campus with a full schedule during my Spring semester at Fresno City College. However I'm still open Mondays & Fridays from Noon-8pm and Weekends from Noon-Midnight, by appointment only. For email, phone and skype I'm still available daily by appointment only and between Tuesdays through Thursdays will only accept appointments if they work around my schedule, so Late Evening appointments on Tuesday and Thursday's are open, as well as Early Afternoon appointments on Wednesdays. As my schedule opens up I'll be more available and as for emergencies and crisis of any sorts I'm still on call and will accept them as quickly as I can incorporate them into both of our schedules. If you have any questions about my new hours please contact me, and I'll return your email within 24 hours.
Coming Summer 2015!
I've had numerous requests for Introduction to Psychic Protection, Introduction to Psychic Abilities, & Child Development for Sapphire, Indigo, Rainbow & Crystal Children for quite some time now, due to a busy school schedule I haven't had any time to complete them, so stay tuned as your classes will be ready by Summer Solstice 2015! Also in the works classes and workshops on a donation basis will be located at Fresno City College for struggling and stressed out students in need, I'm in contact with Student Services and fulfilling all the obligations to ensure these are offered by Spring 2015.
The Rubenesque Revolution
Workshop Series Summer 2015
In addition to these wonderful classes I'm also in the process of developing a four class Self Esteem, Body & Sexuality Positive & Female Empowerment Workshop Series, that expands The Rubenesque Revolution to women locally and worldwide to gain invaluable insight, life changing exercises, assignments and group exercises to develop positive female relationships inside and outside the fourth generation wave of feminism. We must embrace the female goddess within and in turn embrace it in each and every single woman that is a walking goddess incarnate, whether she knows it or not. By engaging in a female gathering group workshop series that will expand your mind, body and soul to make room for self love, sacred femininity and sacred sexuality allows each and every one of us to bring about the next phase in human and female interpersonal ascension and global consciousness. By removing the stigmas, skewed viewpoints, and oppressive views of women worldwide we create the world we truly want to live in, the one that celebrates the beauty of woman in all her divine glory.
This magnificent cookbook was collaborated by the Fresno Pagan Pride Community as well as those kitchen witch pagans worldwide that desired to be a part of this profoundly special cookbook. It was originally created as my personal contribution to fundraising efforts for the local chapter of the national pagan movement, and as many locals and worldwide pagans have enjoyed the diverse, unique and endlessly ancient recipes found between the pages along with personal stories, tips for cooking and a rich history of pagan ways from the old world to the new, it's easy to see why it was Amazon.com's 2 year running title holder of "Most Unique Cookbook" on their entire site of delicious feast inspired books. For those of you that desire to learn more about pagan ways of life, or are looking for a special and new recipe that you want to surprise your friends and family with, can easily find and purchase this cookbook by following the link below.
Please Note: that all proceeds now go directly to Shadows Into Light Spiritual Services Temple & Archive to ensure clients receive the most updated and accurate forms of spiritual services available with the most accurate and updated equipment needed to ensure this takes places now and in the future. For those purchasing a copy of this book to help support the local pagan pride day organization please note that 50% of the sale's only go to the local chapter when purchased at the festival's live event. If schedule's permit you might see me there next year, here's hoping until then that you enjoy the special stories and love filled recipes found in this incredible and one-of-a-kind book.
Recipes for The Pagan Soul Cookbook can be found, and purchased Here.
What Two Thousand Fifteen Has Waiting for You!
For the daily spiritualist that desires to expand the richness of their life with spiritual diversity I welcome you to The Shadows Into Light Temple Archive
Shadows Into Light Spiritual Services with Psychic Bella Monthly Special 50% Off!
Don't forget to check out This Month's Special from Shadows into Light Spiritual Services with Psychic Bella, each month a service or product is chosen at random and offered at half-price for those spiritualists in need on a very strict budget.
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The Scarlet Gardens invites your curiosity
Extended Galleries, Including the Infamous Madame De Pompadour series, as well as these two lovely editions filled with imagery, history and personal reflection about courtesan and concubine living.
New Extended Galleries
Historical Recreation: Milonia Caesonia Empress Consort of The Roman Empire
Historical Recreation: The Iconic "Mama Cass" Elliot
Each gallery includes historical references, insight from the artist herself as well as passionate tributes to the Old World and The New.
The Scarlet Gardens Proudly Presents:
I Dream In Concubine Historical Recreation Calendar featuring Bella BloodLust
2015 Calendar Now Available for Purchase!
Visit The Old World Shoppe to Order Yours Tonight!
The iron gates are waiting for you to turn the key, all you need is one secret password and entry into my world of dark decadence and sensual delight is yours for eternity.
The Scarlet Gardens is Under Reconstruction
I've recently dedicated this section of my website to the most profound dream come true that I've found from stories 2,000 years old and now live, breathe and experience it every single day of my life, previous educational articles and fetish entries are now being collaborated and expressed in my book pursuit below, feel free to keep up with my updates as the book progresses. As I presently focus and make time for educating those that desire to know more about this decadent world of debaucherous living while writing multiple novels to express what it truly means to be a living, breathing and loving concubine, I choose to share through my legacy my life's work my novel which is presently still in the brainstorming realm. After the book is published Mistress Bella and His Bella Luna will build an entire curriculum for fetishists world wide to climb the thorny branches of Twin Flame Divine Reunion.
How The Sun King Captured The Moon:
A Tale of Twin Flames
by His Bella Luna
The Unveiling of the year Two Thousand and Fifteen:
Exclusive Access Into My World:
As the previous year has been primarily focused upon creating a world all my own, building from the ivy clad earth a beautiful palace of decadence and old world charm, I've seen so many places to expand upon my creations in the form of erotic expression that is as old as time and passion itself, over the coming months you will have access too erotic literature, including a book of short stories that have never been read before, expanded cosplay and fetish galleries, the more exposure I've received worldwide has opened up a floodgate of creative extraordinaire s to work with and collaborate with for your pleasure and mostly mine. As I've found a desire, a thirst and hunger to translate what the dark velvet world has meant to me for so many years now into workshops, classes, video tutorials and a world filled with lifestyle, fashion and a personal diary from the boudoir of Mistress Belladonna herself, those that seek dark ascension will truly find their sinful salvation behind the iron gates of The Scarlet Gardens. As La Maison BloodLust is expanding headquarters the private connoisseur will be pleased to enjoy access to more regularly published Videos, Personal Interviews, Published Literature, Music and So Much More, arrive over the coming days and
So find the Iron gate, take the Key and unlock the ivy-clad wooden door, immerse yourself in my sacred world of dark decadent ecstasy and lose yourself in passion, pleasure, and old world charm from the one and only Bella BloodLust.
Join The Scarlet Gardens Today
Those that desire to expand will easily open the gates to The Scarlet Gardens, To those adventurous spirits I say,
including exclusive behind the scenes access to local events, and community organized soirees that truly help those surviving to thrive in the Old World and the New Modern Era.
Feminism The Next Generation
Rogue Festival Rundown
Strawberry Vixen's Wild Vegan Delights
St. Patrick's Day
Vegan Organic Lifestyle
The Scarlet Gardens:
How The Sun King Captured The Moon: A Tale of Twin Flames
Compilation Co-Written Published Book of Horror Erotica
Dark Steam Ascension: Steampunk Lifestyle
Origins of Dark Ascension: BDSM
Underworld Club Scene Politics
News & Events:
Shadows Into Light Workshops & Classes Debut
Steampunk Safari with The Gaslamp Society
Rubenesque Revolution Workshop Series Debut
Rubenesque Revolution Self Esteem Movement
The 3rd Annual Victorian Cemetery Picnic with The Gaslamp Society
Psychic Bella & The Scarlet Gardens Merchandise Debut
RM Gillmore & Psychic Bella
The Illusive Bella BloodLust
Old World Goddess in The Modern Era
As many of you realize I've been without reliable transportation since February of 2013, as much as bicycling and walking are guaranteed forms of travel, unfortunately in our rather large but not quite Metropolis city, the bus itself is quite atrocious, from hours just to reach the other side of Fresno, to the probably swifter comparison of an Amish with Horse and Wagon it's truly not a convenient form of transportation, that usually leaves one late, super early or profoundly confused as to why no bus has arrived at all. Another common mid-city factor is due to the middle-ground our current city population is in, they don't offer bus transportation once all the parties are ready to commence! In larger cities like LA or San Francisco the buses run 24 hours a day, very convenient for those that work evenings and night owls that enjoy a bit of fun in the night after a long hard day. This usually keeps me limited to Tower District area as well as carpooling with friends and family on special occasions as it's the only affordable way to travel in this city after hours, with Taxi's costing as much as a half a weeks worth of vegan groceries for a 20 minute ride it's easy to see on a student's, psychic's and artist's budget as to why Psychic Bella & Bella BloodLust are truly home bound for the time being. Unless special preparations are made in advanced it's usually not possible for me to venture out after dark unless it's nearby. I am appreciative of the simplistic and old world way my life is lead currently but that doesn't mean it doesn't have it's common struggles, as time consuming as mundane and regular tasks usually are, they're quadrupled in time amounts when the city bus is the only method of travel presently, so do forgive me for my inability to see each and every one of you as much as I desire, as much as I plan, but as most of us that live and thrive in this part of the city already realize, once you live in Bohemia it's hard to leave just like the alluring draw of Moulin Rouge, we thrive in the twinkling lights, and creative expressions of art, music, dancing and performance art, so do forgive me if I find it hard to ever leave this place I truly call home.
Other Time Period Cosplay Soirees From The Gaslamp Society to Enjoying Time & Space with Friends, Family & Special Occasions I do my best to participate and arrive in style to as many events and social outings as I can manage with finances, lack of transportation and mostly lack of energy at the time. Fresno City College travel is fun but also very exhausting on the body, so I do look forward to seeing you when I do, and appreciate those that can understand how slow paced life can be without all the modern accommodations. P.E.R.C Fresno is another wonderful old world cosplay society esteemed on costume recreations and customs of time periods past, you may remember seeing many of these wonderful chaps and ladies at our co-hosted Time Travel Tea Party for those of you that can't get enough time period recreation fun, join both societies and prepare the sewing machines, we've got costumes to make!
The Gaslamp Societies
Spring Event Schedule
*Steampunk Cruise ~ April 25th - May 3rd, 2015
*Banat Tanjora performs at Tulare Renaissance Faire ~ May 2nd- 3rd
Quarterly Gaslamp Gathering ~ May, *TBD* possibly: Time Travel Tea @ Vintage Rose, 2015
*The Steampunk World's Faire ~ May 15th-17th
*Fresno Pirate Festival @ Kearney Park ~ May 16th
* VBS Presents Spring Fling at Frank's Place ~ May 16th
*Comic Crawl 2015 in Tower District ~ May 30th
* Those marked events include Gaslamp Society Members excursions to traditional and maker movement pastimes. Contact individual members for more details as these events are attended but not organized by The Gaslamp Society.
For more information about these upcoming events stay informed and Like Our Public Facebook Page, are you a community participant that's inspired to help us organize and stock the Zeppelin before each event? Then find our Group on Facebook through The Gaslamp Society Page.
Goals & Dreams for The Future
AA Degree in Anthropology
Anthropology is the study of human beings, it bridges the gap between societal, religious, cultural and linguistic gaps that have long been needed to be bridged to assure we all transcend to a more Unitarian existence, allowing the psychic to also become the scientist to not only broaden the world and understanding for clients in a more scientific as well as merging their already understood natural sciences to allow each field to finally accept and embrace each other regardless of terminology. This will eventually allow me to be able to help clients even with medical insurance instead of just having to pay out of pocket which is a big problem with Western Society, that Holistic Medicine is seen secondary to Traditional, in Eastern Societies it's revered and we wonder why everybody in India & Japan live to be 120 years old without cancer, diabetes or obesity. This also allows me to pursue and help my spiritual clients in all aspects not just the spiritual and religious sector, as much as I very much enjoy this, as a Shaman I've innately felt until all religions and philosophical concepts are understood and shared completely we all have missing puzzle pieces and bridges that need to be connected, this is where Psychic Bella comes in.
BS in Criminology & Forensics with a Minor in Psychology
This avenue of educational pursuits will allow me to transfer my abilities to assisting in more cold cases and other cases involving dead or alive circumstances in the field of victomology, by having a dual degree in forensics I'll be able to transfer helping people and various cultures, and religious backgrounds to be seen correctly by the criminal justice department and also bridge the gaps by solving cases as a Psychic Detective, after already assisting off-record with previous officers and actually being the key person that helped solve the cases, it's been told to me by more than a few officers that they'd legally use and pay me as an independent detective and investigator that will allow me to work from home, be called to crime scenes or domestic disputes and finally allow families to rest once they've had their case or common issue solved. With the best criminology lab and brand new facility here only in Fresno and West Virginia, I consider myself lucky to have the opportunity to receive such quality training and education that allows me to help but not become one of those typical cops, Sorry I quite literally refuse to participate I'm here to solve cases and help people, keep the pride to badges to yourself I'm just not interested.
Masters in Psychology with Concentration in English, Religion & Nutrition
After receiving my Master's Degree I'll be able to pursue a doctorate or Ph.D that will allow my writing to be taken seriously, as well as earning the title Doctor, once received I've been more than informed that you truly can change the world with just your title, I'll be focusing on getting more of my work published, concentrating on religious victomology as I truly help to free those that were bound to such rigid and forced views as I was given and worse to be able to help transcend life in the most healthy way. Nutrition is essential as a vegan and holistic medicine practitioner, I'm quite excited to announce that in the next decade my love and I will be able to open a Holistic Medicine Clinic, that specializes in healthy living, from gardening, to raw food clinics, to spirituality and holistic medicine we're rooted in our goals and dreams for the future, to not only continue to be healthy but to help those that never thought they could gain a second chance at life and vitality. Becoming a Diadedic Aide will assure my partner that when He's out away from the clinic saving the world, I'll be there ensuring our staff, patients and temple is running efficiently as this level of degree is required to assist a brilliant Doctor and eventual Masters in Chemistry my one and only Twin Flame. I can already see him accepting his Nobel Prize for curing so many diseases and ailments of humanities modern era, and with his brilliance ensuring your body is well, and my desire to help your soul and mind, we're both truly anticipating and ensuring this dream comies to fruition more than you can even imagine.
Successful in Business & Health
Currently as Psychic Bella & also Head Marketer for Imij Medicine, I'm truly busy 7 days a week, I currently accept appointments Mondays, Fridays and on Weekends for in-person spiritual bookings as well as online ones for international clients. The rest of the time my energy is shared between collegiate pursuits, and assisting my love in our mutual dreams and business pursuits. This is why advanced planning is needed for social outings and even Shadows Into Light Spiritual Services Bookings, as the months and seasons change so does my traveling gypsy soul, and I'm truly needed out there in the big world so please join us and enjoy the ever changing and prosperous scenery. Besides these pursuits I have my enjoyable times as Model, Artist, Siren, & Performance Artist, these times are few and far in between but as time goes by and opportunity knocks I'm grateful when good health is along with me to pursue these dreams.
After a very tumultuous year in two thousand fourteen and many months of dealing with endless health issues, (that was after fifteen years trying to get this tubal ligation surgery) I'm proud to say with the last bit of the slow post surgery muscular healing right now that I'm doing fantastic! I feel amazing, energy is restored no more insane ovaries trying to kill me with cyst bursts each month, and the extensive cleaning procedure done for my endometriosis scar tissue has left my body feeling wonderful! I never realized how many ailments stemmed from these awful disorders and now that I'm a fixed kitten I'm happy to say I feel like a true Goddess now that my mind, body and soul are working together in tandem instead of being mentally exhausted and spiritually depressed that once again this month I'm down for two weeks just existing until the problems went away after my menstrual cycles each month. I'm finally 1000% percent healthy and because of that life long issue finally being solved be prepared to see a lot more of me over the coming weeks, months and years! I'm happy to be alive and have the energy to boot!
With Twin Flame Love and Passion...
Comes Painful Transformative Growth
The hardest part is not realizing that it took over, and even harder still having the one being in the cosmos that can truly guide me home whenever I am most lost, feel that I've floated off too far into the ether to be pulled back in again. Requiring an immense amount of patience on his part as his loving twin flame bumbles around in lost in her environment and mostly in her own mind.
This part of love is never easy, seeing the one you love suffering at their own hands and within the exhaustion of their own mistakes that continue to build require more time to correct the problems to find the solutions if one just rested, slept and took the time to recuperate instead of catering to lunacy and old inner demons that were cast away ages ago to take over once more and wreak havoc on health, sanity and most of all the bond of love.
It's never easy being seen fully, exposed vulnerable in front of the one you love hoping that when these dark storms pass through and stay much longer than ever anticipated that their solution won't be just to save themselves, to run, flee and swim ashore to any island to abandon ship and let this chaos capsize at the bottom of the ocean along with the Titanic. It's even harder still watching the one you love suffer at the hands of not a stranger, but by their very own hands. I know how difficult this is from retrospective recall, I remember how hard it was to always love somebody that if only they'd take my advice would feel an elevated quality in life and true sense of love that was never exchanged ever before between two people.
Now I find myself on the opposite end of that journey, the very one suffering while my Twin Flame looks on saddened, and slowly losing patience in resentment not of the problems, disorders or difficult times that arise along side them in times of stress and darkness, but that he can't even enjoy the real me when she's rested enough mentally to make an appearance. The trap feels tighter and the constrictions to be perfect even more unbearable now in this latest revelation, but that's what the ego wants you to feel, that being perfect is the only way to be loved. It's just not the case. Taking care of myself, loving and nurturing myself and ensuring that I can thrive on my own and ask in times of need for help in open, honest and well rested forms of expression instead of jarbled words of dyslexic phrasings that make no sense in any dialect, language or game of charades.
To embrace the darkside we have to surround it with light, it feels as raw as being skinned alive or as vampires fear the light of sun for the warmth also brings impending and incinerating death, this is how difficult and painful this trial feels in my life presently and due to not tending to an exhausted mind I can't even express what my love is feeling or experiencing right now, because I haven't the room, energy or even resources to know, absorb or grasp the concept of any conversation, so in silence and recuperation I find what it means to be loved truly, unconditionally and endlessly once more, and even in this state of guilt at ever letting myself get this bad when I saw it coming a month ago and didn't stop the momentum, I realize that loving myself completely is a full time job, and loving my twin flame completely also means loving myself first for without the rejuvenated resources of my own well of light and love, what dose he truly ever have, experience or feel except stress, worry and sleepless nights.
This divine dance of thorny roses, isn't as romantic as everybody elaborates it to be, it's raw, painful at times humiliating and at it's very core transformative for the highest potential and purpose a woman, twin flame and human being can have, and for all it's pain and glory I welcome, embrace and listen and obey for I haven't the eyes or mind to see any of the truest answers until this cloud of exhausted confusion is lifted from both mind and eyes.
Until We Meet Again...