May is Mental Health Awareness Month
May is Mental Health Awareness Month, with 1 in 4 people now affected from the self-aware and self-diagnosed to those still searching for the right terminology, or actual diagnosis to arrive to express their very unique and profoundly diverse "disorders" its time to allow others who are still uninformed or misinformed to educate themselves and support those of us that vary from the rest of the population to be loved and appreciated with our day to day challenges that we deal with internally.
As a Psychic I've always told people that these gifts are latent in our early spiritual development as if nurtured these abilities strengthen with such ability to turn each and every one of us into true God & Goddess Heads, or Superhero's to those unable to grasp the ability of a fully functioning brain. For many dear friends and family they're most aware that my abilities were not developed in such a way, due to many aspects of severe and repetitive trauma that was endured throughout childhood combined with numerous near death scenarios, the core cause of my psychic gift and at times profound curse on days like these when internal oceans flair up into perfect storms and I'm left exposed and unable to make sense out of so many years of trauma that is still walled off and waiting to be processed through like the ancient halls of Alexandria most scrolls are damaged, burned, or submerged in the depths of the ocean and I'm still at a loss as to how to process through so much, and to process through so many traumatic experiences that at the age of three caused a very profoundly gifted psychiatrist to diagnosis me with Post Traumatic Stress Disorder.
A disorder not obtained by wars in the middle east, but from wars that were happening right in my own home, from those around me that should have protected me but instead left me to still clean up the mess and try to forge pieces of what is left internally that was damaged so long ago. The process and road to recovery from the past twenty five years in a very abusive environment has truly left battle scars that no shoulder will ever understand, this is not to negate their pain and suffering, this allows me to express my pain that is very real, and very different from those in combat scenarios. As often as these profound psychic abilities allow me to help others and myself to live and prosperous and wonderful life, the scars beneath the surface take eons to heal, and as I find myself on this two year journey with a new diagnosis of High Functioning Female Asperger's often times I'm at a loss for words not just due to my dual diagnosis as it's truly liberated so many unanswered questions about myself, but to also shed light to the fact that the more Shadows that arrive that need to be turned into Light, I realize that this journey and process towards healing and recovering from a dark past that was forced upon me from extremely unhealthy people is just the beginning, the flashbacks remind me every day how present I need to be to truly enjoy and relish in what beauty life can offer, and in the end, what I truly deserve after surviving hell on earth, a chance at true paradise.
To those of you fighting, surviving and thriving through your personal battles, I commend you, without your strength and courage we'd all have nobody to be inspired by, to keep going.
Love & Light,
10 Most Diagnosed Mental Disorders
#10 Autism Spectrum Disorders
#8 Bipolar Disorder
#7 Panic Disorder
#6 Anxiety Disorder
#4 Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder
#3 Eating Disorder
#2 Personality Disorders
#1 Mood Disorders
This top ten list is a great start, after reading the information after a lifetime of spiritual and mental health pursuits of all paths both traditional and holistic, I've found this covers the general areas of each disorder very well, including the ones I myself personally have. This is truly just a start, it's not going to give you the gritty details of each and every person that is classified and currently undergoing diagnosis either self or from professional's, but it will open the doors and if they've never been opened before this can truly be the first spark of light at the end of the tunnel both you, your family and your struggling loved one can look forward to together, it's not easy from any side of this journey and process, during my most self-destructive and detrimental phases in my early disorder onset's it was beyond hell for myself and my family to be so close yet so far away to their loved one who they wanted to help in any way possible but just had to endure seeing them suffer. For children to witness this in parent's or loved ones is even harder and crueler in the long run, it's just too much for such bright innocent beings to comprehend and to not take one hundred percent personally, this very core issue from my childhood trauma and abuse still haunts me to this very day and causes issues in relationships and within myself as it's always hard to feel deserving of love or anything positive in the world once you've been reinforced for most of your life that neither is given and expectations of such ideals is pure insanity. Take the time to do the research and be willing to go through the same hell step for step that your loved one is enduring right now, as they say no man or woman is an island. We're all interconnected and even on our worst days knowing you're there for us, and love us even when it's hard to love ourselves or worse even to comprehend what love is when parts of ourselves are so far gone from numerous disorder side effects, just showing that you care is what makes the difference and truly inspires us on our journey even if the ripples felt are only experienced under the surface, your love and support during these times is appreciated and the very water that quenches our thirst in these troubled times.
Male Vs. Female
On days when I'm more than okay with my diagnosis I find the above quotes to be quite hilarious, but at other times it's often disconcerting, as a woman with this very classically male disorder the way my brain interprets being Aspy's is very different from the male end of this very broad autism spectrum. As a child I always felt different, always identified with very intelligent, intellectual males that also enjoyed a very rich fantasy life. From dressing up as Super Hero's & Villains to not personally identifying with half the toys girls my age enjoyed while they were playing with Barbies & My Little Ponies, I was much happier being Catwoman and playing with Lego's to build the empire I've always wanted. From proclaiming at the age of seven that I'd never have children and never marry but instead roam the world as a traveling pirate gypsy queen who freed people from slavery wherever I found them. I never had a sense of normalcy compared to other neurotypical females and because of that I've often felt isolated, alienated and truly quite alien, in most things in society that women are expected to participate in. I ended up in speech as a young child and was proclaimed as gifted even then, but it wasn't until I met a profoundly brilliant neuro-psychiatrist last year after struggling quite over-emotionally for twenty six years to put the words that only ever flowed easily on paper to verbal cues and articulate once and for all that I very much indeed have Female Aspbergers.
Autism is a broad spectrum, Female Asperger's is a very specific and still somewhat unexplored branch of the spectrum, as I've recently been personally diagnosed as High Functioning, but throughout my life have always felt a bit out of place and not sure how to elaborate, I've found the more research I do for my branch of unique brain power has helped substantially in bridging communication gaps and learning to feel more comfortable in at times awkward social situations.
If you or somebody you know has Asperger's Syndrome or if your interested in learning more about this unique and amazing way the brain works that's very much needed in the world, read on! Between my personal research and experiences for PTSD-Post Traumatic Stress Disorder and Female Aspy's I finally realize why I have such a unique disposition in this world and why my vision varies drastically from most people I meet.
If you've ever been categorized as an INFJ you very well may have Asperger's and that's perfectly okay! Sheldon Cooper has it and we're all still watching and enjoying Big Bang Theory, some of the most brilliant and highly intellectual types have this "disorder" and because of it we're all learning how to understand and appreciate each other on vastly diverse scales.
I've personally found the following websites and articles to be the most helpful in understanding this very unique branch of autism on the over all diverse and broad autism tree. Please share with friends, family and loved ones you never know who's life you can change in profoundly liberating and healthy ways by helping them to finally understand themselves and to perceive the world they live in the way others do, and to also have the ability to translate the world we see to others as well, as this is truly what healthy interconnections are all about.
List for Female Asperger's Traits
Asperger's Syndrome The Male Brain
5 Tips for Loving Somebody with Asperger's
How to Relate to Someone with Aspy's
Dating Someone with Aspy's
Tips on Aspy Relationships
Below is a book that's absolutely changed my life, the incredible information found within helped me to bridge communication gaps between my Aspy brain and that of my partner and love of my life who also has Aspberger's the male side of the spectrum I might add, so we're constantly learning how to bridge gaps when we see them and to laugh hysterically together when we're both absolutely dumbfounded as to how to convey our brains point of view to our love's very different brain's point of view, with a great couple's book and couple's counselor who's also both our very own individual neuro-psychiatrist we both feel much more confident about ourselves and each other in our relationship and every obstacle can be easily overcome now that we have the tools to do so, lovingly and with full support together.
Anxiety & Panic Disorders
From the overwhelming energy overload and stimuli we receive at home, work, school and with our family, children, and at times awful neighbors we just happen to be stuck living next door too. Humanity hasn't truly had a place to rest in complete silence and recuperate from the days energetic and environmental contamination that one absorbs on psychic and spiritual levels. If you live in Tower District from insane crime, sirens throughout the night followed by police, firetrucks and paramedics, when you're in the middle of satori and communing with the ascended beings off planet or having a nice chat with an ancestor on the other side it's pretty distracting to maintain that peace of mind and spirit when the entire world sounds like Godzilla just rose to shore and is fighting the evil Muto, Don't get me wrong that movie was amazing, go see it right now! However in the midst of meditation and deep body focused relaxation after a very long day, it's easy to see in these urban communities and ones that are densely populated with chaos, crime and the endless homeless wandering around fighting with hallucinations, strung out on cocktails of street drugs and pharmaceuticals that one would easily flee to the top of a mountain in an ashram just to regain what the words peace and serenity truly mean.
As the world populates itself like Japan in aspects of human interaction, close quarters and technology overload this issue is bound to arise in busy cities all over the world. So make sure to invest into your good health by dedicating yourself to a simple meditation routine, and also make it mandatory to find yourself on a spiritual vacation at least once a year, preferably once each season where you can truly unwind, and be in touch with nature. It's that lost aspect of modern living that's truly catered to every aspect of panic and anxiety disorders.
8 Things only People with Anxiety Understand
Anxiety & Panic Disorders
What is Anxiety?
Post Traumatic Stress Disorder
From refugees surviving the war and fleeing their homeland with their baby on their body and only $5 in American currency to start a new life with in this country, to the endless children that have been held hostage, kidnapped, and used in sex slavery not across the world, but right here in your very own backyard. To the women like myself that grew up surviving day to day in a drug and alcohol fueled prison with people that could only be currently type cast as those you've recently watched on Breaking Bad & Sons of Anarchy, to the endless women and children that have endured sexual, physical, emotional and psychological abuse for so long that by the time they're free from such hell that the only way they ever feel normal is by returning to a hell that's almost identical to their former and recent past due to the extensive damage and physical responses that are trained and programmed into our bodies at such a young age with repetitive and debilitating routines that structure and form us into what our victimizers want and losing ourselves in the process. I've met many women and men that escaped and survived cults and very popular and well known religious cults and followings that suffered and endured, shared their endless stories and are still on the journey to healing all of which would not be possible without strength and a will to truly survive the state of horrors they never even knew were labeled in such a way until after they were released from the compound, or after they ran from their home's like I did at nineteen not knowing how I'd survive but willing to take a chance on anything that could possibly be better in life than this existence under a psychotic person's rule anymore.
It was on my twenty fifth birthday that I finally after years of therapy since the age of three let me remind you, that I was strong enough to realize that the man I fell for ages ago wasn't a better existence but a far worse and more detrimental repeat of the life I lived with the one person that should protect and love you more than anybody in this world ever should, my mother. After years of alcohol and drug abuse perpetuated a long list of un-diagnosed mental disorders, by her choice of course, narcissism and pride are not the mentalities to have if recovery and healing are in your present agenda. After finally finding the man of my dreams, or so I thought, who rescued me from her tyrannical and psychotic existence in my life, after she stole my identity to pay for drugs and used my monthly income to pay the rent while she refused to get a job and I was doing my best to pursue a degree and change my life, it was obvious that moving in with my boyfriend of six months was probably the best idea and blessing from the universe I'd ever received.
Sadly after we moved in together I started to notice the same violent temper, abusive actions and language that my own mother used, for somebody already with PTSD, this was a living, breathing, nightmare that felt so unreal that I compartmentalized myself and who I was and continued to rot away and die inside while I endured the same song and dance I'd already received for the first nineteen years of my life. To later find out that he was not only lying to me but stealing from the money we provided for our monthly income to find strange men on craigslist and to use drugs with them and do all sorts of sexual activities with it was heart breaking, I was at a loss for words and did my best just to keep it together so he could continue to work, try to realize that this lifestyle was going to kill him, while I slept on the couch and waited for him to come down off meth every six weeks or so, when the mood struck as he used to put it. From our intimacy and sex life to every aspect of our relationship deteriorating to realizing that this relationship could never work if I wanted to pursued my life goals and follow my dreams, I sacrificed myself for what I thought was love at the time, but now later realize it's PTSD 101 to recreate the same hellish environment that we've been born into and perpetuate it long into our lives, I stayed for seven years, and tried to redefine our love and relationship to pursue both of our needs, We ended up being polyamorous and he kept dating men in very unhealthy ways so I continued to stay celibate until I found other partners to enjoy a loving disposition with. Sadly this way of life continued on for almost seven years until I finally said I couldn't take it anymore, and after one of our routine fights when he vowed to break up with me a way to cruelly damage a woman with endless abandonment issues due to a very rough childhood and neglectful parents, I sunk into a deep depression realizing I foolishly walked with heart on sleeve into hell with arms wide open, truly expecting that happily ever after could be possible.
Two days before Valentine's Day he moved out and I've never seen or spoken to him again, I sent one last email as he vowed to stay friends throughout our lives and I agreed to meet for lunch on a semi-routinely basis was left with the words
Thanks for the message, have a great life, Like I plan on having now.
It was hard after seven years of blood, sweat, tears, bruised ribs and a broken heart that this is how it ended, but fortunately when I had the strength and courage to say goodbye to such a hell, I was given the most beautiful gift of all, Unconditional Love from my Twin Flame.
You see he was there the entire time,especially towards the end of my former relationship his home was my safe haven away from hell on earth. He was my best friend and confidant and still is might I add, we even developed deep feelings for each other and a love so strong that no hell could shake it. As we've just approached our 2 year anniversary now and all of this hell is now behind me, It's still hard on bad days when my body still recalls those dark times in my life to not feel overwhelmed even though everything that still exists is only imprinted in my mind, memory bank and physical nervous system. However I know I wouldn't have made it even this far in my healing process and journey without the endless love, devotion and support from my love on my worst days that usually appear somewhat like this.
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If you or somebody you know has experienced trauma and you want to help them heal or at least give them a starting point as to where to begin please share this and other resources, this is truly life changing and life saving, each year 1 in 5 will kill themselves from this atrocious and life long disorder as a woman who's personally struggled with suicidal ideations and past actions that resulted in intensive hospitalization and therapy I can assure you we need your help to heal the world, the numbers keep rising and as more people endure more horrifying forms of trauma, horror and world and human based cruelties such as war, kidnapping, sex trafficking and worse it's our job to ensure that they can heal and in time eradicate this form of disease or dis-ease off this planet once and for all. My journey is not over, in fact it's just begun, but I know that my life has meaning and I have self-worth because of the love, support and help I've received from friends, family, loved ones, therapists and self-help books. You truly can make a huge and everlasting impact on somebodies life for the sake of good, so go out there and be a mental health awareness superhero!
What is PTSD?
Emotional & Psychological Trauma
Neurologist Insight On PTSD
"Most people don't understand that PTSD or Post Traumatic Stress Disorder is not always caused by war combat, for children raised in terror induced households or "Breaking Bad" "Sons of Anarchy" lifestyles due to the choices their parents make, it's not always easy to feel safe, protected, or guarded against attacks that are taking place within and outside in the external environment that truly affect the way somebody grows, is nurtured and in turn sees the world in a much more horrifying way than one can ever truly imagine.
I was formally diagnosed at the age of 3, I'd already witnessed more darkness and heartache than most adults had in their entire lives by that tender young age, and as the years went on and the environment wasn't able to be changed or one wasn't able to escape or migrate to better places, it's a comparable to a form of institutionalization that only those in extreme situations of survival and even cult like mentalities can truly understand.
As I continue my journey each day to overcome the many devastating things that were done to me without permission for over 25 years I realize how far I've come, how grateful I am for those that love and support the real me, not the entity of PTSD that takes over at times of break through's with reinforcement of pain and heartache from the past, I've found that with a good neuro-psychiatrist and this incredible book that can truly be described as "The Owner's Manual for PTSD" I am hopeful and strong each day in making the necessary mind filter changes to ensure that I not only have a beautiful life, but as the negative voices from abusive pasts fade into the distance with their tearing down of self-worth and entitlement, I do realize I deserve to be happy, loved and accepted regardless of the war torn past I once lived, it's finally over and the healing process will continue now for years to come.
If you or somebody you know has PTSD and your struggling to understand in their dark times how to help, read this book it's for families, friends and therapists too as much as it's for patients or survivors like myself. There's no need to feel stigmatized by the things that were done to you without control, your life is not out of control anymore, with this book each wall can be torn down to reveal a paradise that you truly deserve. This book has truly changed my life, I hope it enriches yours and those that you're helping to heal with each chapter and amazing revelation in understanding the Post Traumatic Brain" ~Psychic Bella
As a metaphysical and spiritual being who's implemented every form of holistic healing practice into dark times like these, I can assure you that even tried and true methods left me hopeless, without feeling and often drifting in oceans of sadness, however I do recall and still remind myself in the midst of days like these that This too shall pass and nurturing myself in all possible ways in a supportive and loving environment often snapped me out of much of my depression and eventually with the love of my twin flame brought me back completely home to a place where I've healed enough to share my progress with you and your loved ones enduring this disorder. There is hope, even in the black dark overbearing weight of the saddest and most hopeless days, each moment we embrace life even in simplistic ways opens bigger doors to better opportunities for happiness, health, and well being. Keep going your journey isn't over.
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PBS: Out of the Shadows, Watching Depression
Depressions Evolutionary Roots
Science & History of Treating Depression
Holistic Approach to Treating Depression
Is the World more Depressed?
Prenatal & Postpartum Depression
This profound book was given to me by a profoundly wise Buddhist couple, a duo of neighbors that greatly affected my life path in the most positive ways, from overcoming depression, terminal illnesses more times in that few years than I could count, this book was and still is a constant resolution to all of the unanswered and painful questions my mind often ponders. It's filled with simple and easy to identify and implement solutions to humanities simplest and complex problems, I have yet to meet a person who has read this book who hasn't been profoundly changed by the invaluable words and tools that are waiting for you inside. This truly will be the start of your journey, a new spark lit on a torch you thought was burned out long ago, this is your time to shine, to embrace your true purpose and to create the dreams you have in mind's eye into living reality. ~Namaste, Psychic Bella
After having to say goodbye to very lethal and rare cases, as well as having many friends and family members currently that are well supported by yours truly, one has to be careful at generalizations, labels are very unique in all aspects of disorders, each person is an individual, each diagnosis a case by case basis. If this wasn't in fact the case then we'd have no need for individual therapy, we'd all just sit in groups together, and progress as one, but sadly each person has a very different version and different ways they experience how the disorder disrupts and at times ruins huge portions of their lives. So show them love, embrace them and also identify their unique creative strengths as most of them offer a wide array of ideas and practical ways to implement such brilliance if you'd just give them the chance to celebrate and be apart of life like you choose too each and every day. This is what breaking stigmas is truly all about.
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Bipolar Life Lessons
For a truly profound read on the subject a book that helped me identify that I needed to keep searching for the right diagnosis, as well as also identifying how my disorders mimic'ed Bipolar Disorder and the hell most endure while finding balance within and within the world around them, this fascinating read from a Ivy League Professor with the disorder will truly open your eyes and help heal personal wounds and wounds you've experienced while being with somebody with this disorder as well as true coping skills, key terms and methods to finding a happy and healthy balance for those of you still trying to do so in the midst of your disorder struggles.
ADHD & ADD
As the world's pace quickens more beings from higher dimensions gratefully incarnate to balance and accelerate the world in it's current chaos state. While the rest of us still have these Pentium 1 processors most adults and children with ADHD & ADD are functioning at a Pentium 4 processor mentally. We can't negate that its often trouble some to be interrupted and to have conversations stolen and turned into Hey look at this amazing thing I just found! But with these ideals kept in mind perhaps you'll start seeing the truly advanced brain your love, family, friend or even child possesses currently and even find ways to develop your brain in a more forward thinking and rapid efficiency pace that presently these beings seem to have a much higher grasp of.
In metaphysical circles the terms coined for these types of being with profound place in this world that's very much needed are referred to as Indigo, Rainbow, Crystal & Sapphire Children. The last name you won't find anywhere else besides here, as it's information I channeled personally from the higher realms, however for more insight on Doreen Virtue's work as well as her Indigo son's work please refer to the resources listed below, and stay tuned for my workshops and classes coming this Fall of 2014 to Shadows Into Light Spiritual Services Temple as much is in store for us all during this grand ascension process, where other disorders are true side effects of empaths in modern times, this specific disorder is very much a glimpse of the high functioning or Attuned to a Higher Dimensional (ADHD) thinking that is embodied in these very special beings both present and future.
After numerous stories of how Ritalin ruined children's minds even as they endure the damage left behind in adulthood I advise you to seek out every aspect of holistic medicine possible before permanently damaging your child's very unique and high functioning brain, through special classes, workshops and teachers with patience we can overcome the side effects that distract others, with therapy and the right coping skills and methods children hopefully in the near future will never have to take mind and mood altering drugs again.
ADHD & ADD What is It?
The Drugging of The American Boy
ADHD Medication does NOT increase Children's Grades
Concerns with Modern ADHD Treatments
My Romance with ADHD Medications
Myths about Mental Disorders
#10 Antisocial Disorder
#9 DID formerly Multiple Personality Disorder
#6 Autism Spectrum Disorders
#5 Attention Deficit Hyperactive Disorder
#4 Selective Mutism
#3 Self Harm & Self Injury
#2 Obsessive Compulsive Disorder
#1 All Mental Disorders
The above article is very good at pointing out the truths and common myths behind the most common mental disorders. To further help yourself and others awaken to the very crucial need for love, compassion, support and understanding this article as well as breaking down the stigmas you have within about people with these disorders as well as the stigmas you've personally built inside yourself that is detrimental to healing, happiness and well being. Please read the article and also enjoy the resources listed below
US of TARA
This amazing show is still available all 3 profoundly brilliant and healing seasons on Netflix
Nami Voice Awards
A list compiled of television, film and documentaries that shed insight on mental illness and how to awaken to the need for compassion and education to better understand those still suffering and undiagnosed.
You are NOT Alone!
A brilliant book recently released by a close personal friend of mine, from her struggles with her disorders to the endless beautiful people in this locally from this book that were brave enough to share their stories, You are Not Alone will definitely be an eye opening book for you and those you love, support local artists today and purchase a copy.
If you have any mental, emotional or neurological "disorder" let this book revolutionize the way you see yourself, you are a unique and brilliant being in this world, medication is not always the way to "fix the problem" especially when what you have to offer is very much needed in the world right now for the sake of human evolution! Your not handicapped, your special spark is the root of the ascension process humanity is experiencing right now, those ahead of their time are always perceived as "Crazy" but that's exactly what we need to make great changes towards better tomorrows!
Embrace the fine line between genius and insanity this book will help you to navigate your own unique path towards mental health and leaving stigma's and negative label's at the door!
Please share for those in need of a fresh perspective about forms of brilliance and madness that the world decrees as being the cause of "keeping you down" We're not down! We're ready to move forward! We're truly just waiting for the rest of you to wake up! (Awakening) ~Psychic Bella
Until we meet again, in person, online or hopefully as we heal together at my Temple: Shadows Into Light Spiritual Services, know that you are the only version of you to ever exist on this planet, for that mere reason alone you are invaluable. Never forget this when you forget what self-worth is all about. Your unique spark is the expression of the universe experiencing itself through your eyes, the ancient secrets of the flower of life are now being realized by so many because of this very special message to you from the cosmos. Keep going, never give up and see you soon in love and light,